about me n my life

2011-04-26T11:39:00.002+08:00

みんなさん　おはいよございます。

まま, guess my japanese is not there yet :).

Right, i will type in english then.
Completed my Japanese language elementary 2 last wed with a test, and i passed! Yet I cant get too happy about it coz I did not did really well just managed to get through it. So ya.... The next time that I will be taking jap lessons again will be 2 years later, which means I have to take lessons from elementary 1 all over again :(. haha

After two separate days of doing my devotion, both passage shows the same thing to me. Faith in God produces perseverance, and how to get there? It is by going through trials and problems, including emotional problems. Through all these only will we mature as a person and it will help in our spiritual growth.
I kind of take things in a new light. Every problem that I faces now, I turn to God for help, for everything have been completed and what we need to do is to not do anything but let God do it through us.
It may seems weird that we do not need to do anything to solve our problems but yet it is a fact that all we need is to serve and believe in God. He will provide for us.

Just recently, some emotional problems causes me to want to run away from it again, but yet as I pray to God that I want to leave as I feel that it will benefit all, He turned the situation around and now i don't have the feeling of leaving. However, even so there are still things to be done. And how do I go about doing it? I'm praying for myself, that I will be different.
I feel that this time I handled this emotional problems better than i did two years ago. Two years ago, i relied on my own strengths to overcome it. But yet, it went on for three years and affected all my relationships with others. But right now, I think that God has done it all for me. There is nothing that I need to do, all that I need to do is to believe that He will help me. Although, I said that there is nothing to do, God will ask us to do something such that it will also change us.

After what i have saw for myself in the past 5 months, my faith in the Lord grew. He has really bless me abundantly and I cannot thank Him enough for all that He has done for me. All that I can do now is to place my faith in Him.
I do not fear going through trials and problems now for I know that God is with me and I will be able to overcome it. It is just a matter of time. Praise God for all He has done for me.

2011-04-20T11:56:00.004+08:00

こんにちわ　みんなさん。
きょお、テストはあります。でも　わたしはベンきょおしません。
こわいな。。。。。。。
しかしわたしはがんばってます。

2011-01-27T18:31:00.002+08:00

Woah, in a blink of eye, a week have already passed me by.
And i have been a canberra secondary relief teacher for abit more than a week.
Met many different type of students, hardworking ones, super noisey ones, joker ones and some act pia kia ones and some that i guess i should not write.

It has been great i guess, was fun knowing different kind of students, cause it will lead to me trying to find different ways to talk to them. I guess I have been more of a friend to them rather than a teacher.
Joke and talk with them.

I realised something is wrong with the way school handles discipline problems, we tend to give detention and detention, but does that solve the problems? No
I guess what some students need is a teacher being there with them, some of them we need to just spend some time talking to them. What they need is an adult who they can feel secure to share their problems with, not just punishing them for every mistakes that they made. Yes, i do agree in punishing but only if it really warrants a punishment, if not what is the use of punishing them? They will not learn will they?

Its time to change the way some things are done.
Old ways maybe good, but not always. We can just solve a problem when it appears, we need to solve the root of the problems.

Hmm.........
Hope that i can be of some help to the students.......

2010-12-31T11:57:00.002+08:00

woah wat a long time since i last posted.
December was a hectic month for me. First there was BB Share-A-Gift, after that I'm off to Gopeng for Primers Challenge.
Both were fun events. i truely enjoyed myself.
Praise God.

after all that i will get even busier, i will be in charge of alot of things in my BB company, the boys will see more of me.
I think they will get sick of me.

In the process of finding a job right now, but still unable to get one yet.
anyone got intro?? haha

2010 is coming to an end today, it has not been a wonderful year, but still have a few bright spots.
Pray that 2011 will be a better and great year. May i experience God in a greater and more powerful way.

2010-10-19T10:10:00.002+08:00

Been comtemplating about my decision that i want to make. But i just cant seems to come to a conclusion.
My heart is broken, im wore out.....
i cant seems to be able to piece everything together anymore.
Its falling apart once again....

My mind is tired once again, but what can i do? I dun noe.
All i can do now is to keep praying.

May God grant me the strength that i need and bless everyone.....
I cant let this distract me from my studies for now.
I need to do well for my A level, maybe it will help....
but no matter whether it will help anot, i will prepare myself to the best of my ability and go for the exam.
Cant afford to be let down by myself anymore.

Hope that things will not go down the path that some have gone.....
God bless me with serenity that i need.

Currently listening to avril-Nobody's home.
will fight for all that needs to be fought for!!!!
GOD bless us!

2010-10-17T22:56:00.003+08:00

woah, when i the last time i posted haha....
was just having a rush to update, unusual huh....

1month study break for A has past by by one week, three more weeks to go and i guess im surviving.
did study but was it enough? i wonder....
There are many more out there who are working twice even thrice harder than me. But i guess that i need to work harder rather than wallop in self pity.
I made the decision unconciously last year not to study hard, so this is the consequence i guess....

Nevertheless, i think im still making good progress, qns are easier to understand and attempt for now, just need to do more and be more consistent.
Things are going pretty well for now i guess, except the smae old problems..... BUT if God is for me, WHO can be against me. NOT EVEN SATAN. haha

been exercising the past few weeks, playing tennis with my cell members. Had great fun with them.

I also want to use this time to Thank all those who celebrated my birthday with me! And the birthday wishes and even the presents that i received. It was quite unexpected i guess.....
But nevertheless, A BIG THANK YOU TO YOU ALL!!!

Three more weeks to the final exam,all i can do now is to keep working and stop complaining and scarifice time for things that i can enjoy after A. No time for those things for now i guess.

That's all folks for today!
have a goodnight rest peoples!!!
God bless YOU!

2010-07-09T22:45:00.003+08:00

lol, seeing others ppl updating their blog, gives me a thought, why am i nt updating mine?? haha
so yup, just here to do some quick update though.

many things have passed, happy ones, sad ones, stressful ones, and relaxing ones.
but Now is the TIME to study hard until my A's are over.

pressure is pilling up, not from myself, but from others :(
but this is a phase of life i have to go through. hav been to lienent on myself, need some pushing now...

not really happy with the way i wasted my 1 month of holiday, but happy that for some of it i spent it meaningfully. contradicting arh. but that's the fact :)

things are fine with me for now, but my friends just like to tease me with the rumours, sianzzzz
and i think there are still a lot to improve on my character and my speech and attitude towards ppl and especially to my parents, and close ones.

need to be more responsible and be the person who is reliable and able to help others go through their problems.
have to rise up as a leader in Christ.
people are 'crying out' but im not responding in helping them.
since im on the topic.
my church is having this event call the 40 days of Faith, whereby i will be leading a small group to know more about Jesus, to all my readers, hope ur will take it into considerations. dates are not confirm but most probably it is on every tues. it will last about and hour at most and it is only for 6 weeks.
i dunno who will attend but im gonna trust in the Lord in providing the ppl to me.
so yup, if u are interested, pls feel free to contact me after 5.30 everyday :)

or ya and my godsis is getting married soon:)
happy for her, and it will be the first time i will be at a ROM :)
hope that God will bless her and her marriage that God will bring her back to Him and then use her to bring her future husband to Christ too :)

alright needa sleep now, coz tmr have to go for extra session of BB.
and need to recharge battries for tmr, so that i can study and focus for a long time.
Fight-O.

will keep everyone in prayers :)
need and prayers pls feel free to msg me. will be glad to be able to pray for u!!!!
God bless all who read my updates :)

P.S. pls tag me T.T, very kelian tag box nobody de.
haha.
nights earthlings :)

2010-05-31T12:56:00.002+08:00

holiday started last friday!!!! but yet i did not study at all for the last three days....
how sad.
today woke up at 8+, ended up packing the room until 12.
thats equal to dalf of my day gone :'(
but still i have another half of the day to do my work and to study :)
so yup going out to study soon.

tmr and wed have to go back css fo the drill parades for BB. due to some things i have to be the one in charge.
hmm
how long have i not done drills???
bo bian, lets DO IT!!!!

hmm, i guess thats all that i wan to type.
bye!!!!

2010-04-15T23:00:00.003+08:00

hello peeps! how are ur doin?
hm, as if anyone will reply, oh well. not that important though.

well here i am to blog again. there are many things to talk about. one thing that i wan to talk about is, going through the things that i have stored in my computer, i saw all the pictures that i took in beijing.

it causes me to tink about that time and there are many things that i feel that it is the best time that i had spent so far in my lifetime. i was super duber happy there everyday except on some moody days.

i really wish to go there again with the group of friends. we made a promise that we will go there in about 4 years? lets hope that it will come through :)
alright some pics for ur to enjoy :)
(ps due to some technical problem. will upload soon)
Here are the pics. enjoy :)

2010-03-16T13:40:00.003+08:00

its more than a month since i last posted.

too lazy... :P

after CVD there was alot of things coming up.
next week is already my term test. scary!!!!
not very prepared for it but will do my very best. GOD BLESS ME!!!!

actually wanted to post things last night but after doing this and that feel very sian so did not post.

YJC basketball provisional team of 17 people have been choosen, and as expected im not choosen.
not a surprise coz there was little training that i receive last year, keep injuring myself.
and plus i have a blank period of 2 years of not playing competitive basketball in secondary school.
was losing touch of everything and there are times where im given chance to perform but due to lack of practice and no confidence i make a blunder of everything.

even my good friend improved much faster than me.

in these two years in YJC have let me understand more about myself, and i finally realised that i have been wearing a mask all along the years.
trying to hide away my true self.

im not really a courages person, there are many things which i would like to do and like to excel but i do not have the courage and confidence to stand up and accomplish it. letting chances slip away time and time again. but all these in fact become my stepping stone. now i realise that if there are things that i wan to do i have to step up and accomplish it. so what if i fail, at least i have given it my best shot. but if i didnt even try i and tink that i will fail or the i feel that i have failed, then i will fail or worst still i wun even take the step forward.
now the thing for me is to take courage and try to take up more roles. there are many things that i can achieve, and i wan to achieve all those. i do not wan to leave anymore regrets in my life. i do wan to reflect on my life 10 years down the road and feel that there are many things left undone which cannot be done anymore. i wan to take the chances as it comes and do my best.

going back, my YJC basketball, a chapter of my life have closed. i happy that i finally ended. there i came to know a lot of people, and from them i learn more about how people remember me. i dun think i left a very good impression on everyone. there are many a times, i did things that i shouldnt and that irritated some others. but i guess what is done cannot be undone, now what i can do is to try to change their opinion about me, which will take time.

reflecting on the years that i have playe basketball, started playing when i was in p3, was introduced to basketball by my brother. this is one thing that i really wan to thank him for. if it issnt for basketball, i dun think i will have so many happy memories.
basketball have been in my life for many years now and i enjoy every single minute that im playing basketball. although during the blank period i didnt really play alot, but everytime i step out onto the court, i feel everwhelmed as it reminds me of the happy times that i have spent on the court. i really love being on the court and it the place where i will be free when i was younger. basketball also taught me alot of things. although there are times when i get unhappy when playing but the happiness i got far outweighs the unhappiness. basketball have became something irreplacable in my life, it is part of me. so saying that the chapter of playing basketball ended, that im not sad will be im lying. there is a feeling of sadness as it means that i will not be able to challenge myself at a higher level. i really wan to take part in playing basketball with the rest in A division. i really wan to keep playing but the time to take a step back have come. i wun give up playing but i will be cutting down the times that i will be on the court.
maybe in the near future i may become a basketball coach, who knows what will happen. basketball is something that i wun let go. i will keep it with me for the years to come.

there are also people i want to thank for helping me to grow and know more about myself: lewis, janice, chee leong and many more. thank you for being my friends and accepting me even though im always doing things that may irritate ur, but thanks for being there. really appreciate all of your presence. i know that im imperfect and i will never be perfect, as the only perfect being is JESUS CHRIST, thus being perfect to me in my life is to do everything that i need to do to my utmost best. i will strive to be the best. i will try to be a perfect friend too :). but need to learn more. haha

now is the time whereby i focus on other things in my life which i have been neglecting.
i will work hard, and pray that GOD will bless me in everything that i do.

2010-03-01T21:38:00.002+08:00

woah, last week was quite a hectic week.
last sat had CVD, aka celebrating values day.
had basketball match organised for the secondary schools, and the basketball team job is to be referee.
met quite a few pretty girls though. haha

after that went to my class to help ou.
and friends like naresh cl momo edd and nai tien came.
hosted them for a while then went back to help my class.
have to pangseh them, sry friends.

this week not well, i mean the week is not good. four test in four days. and not getting enough sleep.
it is seriously affecting me.

GOD help to stay refresh every single day.

ok have to go complete my hw.
GOD bless all.

2010-01-19T20:47:00.002+08:00

woah.... just realise that i have not posted for than 12 days.
cant help too lazy to post liao.

right today is the 19 and sch have started for one week and i am starting to pile up my homework, and failing the test that was given until today.
lol

need to start to buck up,
things will improve with GOD around.
will try to update as regularly as i can, but dun keep ur hopes high!
bye

2010-01-04T22:26:00.003+08:00

its the 4 day of 2010 already.
time really flies, still getting ready for sch and the hectic scheldue that is due to come up for this whole year.

done only 4 articles today and cut out another 5 only. targeting to finish that homework by wednesday.
and to use the remaining days to revise my maths, which is super lagging behind.

have been chatting for the past 2 days, but the response was not that gd.
all i can do now is to push on and keep faith in everything, as the theme this year is to DO HARD THINGS!
will push through everything.

and during yesterday church service, i felt GOD telling me to be strong and courages, and also to stand up as a leader.
after thinking about it just now, i realise what it really meant to be a leader, it is to excel in everything i do, setting an example for others and to lead others, when they are lost.

that is what i will achieve by the end of this year, but with GOD i will try to achieve it in half the time i target.

ITS TIME FOR ME TO SHINE!!!!!!

2009-12-31T13:25:00.002+08:00

HI to all!!! today is the last day of 2009, have u enjoyed ur year this year??
for me, the year started rather badly, was getting cross at little things, and the childish things that others did, the worst part was that i could not get along with anyone in yj until july???

was a regrettable year, did not made many new friends, and did badly for my studies, although i was promoted, even b4 i got back my result, i was really afraid that i would retain, but by GOD's grace, i managed to be promoted!!!

i want to thank GOD for this year, as in this year, it was the first year that i really trust GOD in alot of things and that he is really a GOD who answer ur prayer and is with us no matter where we are. he blessed with a lot of things this year, and im happy that i came to know GOD.

although i started the year badly, but i ended the year in a better way, was able to interact with more people, and get to know them better, instead of condemming them and making myself unhappy.

although there are many regrettable decision made, but it was all part of my growing up, making a decision and living with the consequences.

hope that throughout this year, the lessons that i have learned will strengthen me for the years to come, and the knowledge to make wiser decisions.

and the past 5 days was at bb hq from 9-9. was doing sharity gift box, and my role is the delivery ic, which is to send delivery orders and to take delivery orders,
i do dare to say i did a very good job, but i learned quite a lot during these 5 days.

it was a meaningful and fruitful 5 days, and i can say that it is one of the best decisions that i have made for this year to go for sgb.

lets all welcome 2010 in a happy mode, and pray that GOD will continue to be with us and we will continue to put our faith in HIM.

may 2010 start on a high note, and enjoy the new year people!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-12-25T14:05:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!
today is the celebration of the birth of jesus 2000 years ago.
yup, it is a very special day for all as it means that our saviour was born on this day 2000 years ago!!

lets rejoice that he who have no sin became sin on our behalf so that we are able to connect with GOD and be with GOD.
he is great and good to all, praise him!

went to church last night to celebrate christmas with many others, and we went home at about 12 plus catching the last bus from changi and after that we hop onto the train back to sembawang, reached home at about 1 plus, super tired

but nevetheless, GOD blessed me with a good night rest and here i am refreshed and blogging.
for the next five days will not be free as i will be down at BB hq for SGB service and it is from morning 8 to night.
so will be super tired i guess.
and after the last shift, the next day will be countdown, and so i will be super tired for the next few days.
but im sure the LORD will refreshed me and made me ready for everyday challenge.

will be at daniel's hse later to celebrate christmas!
pray that is will not rain!
GOD bless all!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!
have a blessed year ahead.

2009-12-18T10:11:00.002+08:00

have not posted for more than a month,
many things have happened during this past one month, firstly i was promoted to JC2, with a crappy result, which is awful.
next is that that are alot of things to revise and i have not even started even one.

on mon to yesterday was having basketball camp. everything was fun until the last two days, was let down and felt things that i tot would never happened.
hope that next year will be a better year.

last sunday was part of the hospitailty team, was a fun and exciting experience, was quite happy that i went for it, and smth happened and lets see how it will go from there.

today will be going for the christmaspedia thingy and on sun too,
tmr may be going to my church camp to help out or will be going to clarice chruch christmas celebration.

things are not confirm yet.

yup thats all i think.
bye peeps

2009-11-15T20:42:00.003+08:00

lol this is my 101th post.
crazy sia, so long then reach.
haiz zhen si shi bai. lol
anyway yesterday when out with the E1 peeps, the people who are present are: me, seeto, janice, chee leong, chin chang, ah tan, edmund, rayson, tham hin and dion( the only E2 lol)
anyway morning, me, seeto, chin chang and dion when to watch 2012. overall the graphics is very nice, very realistic, i love the way they do it, but the ending quite low climax but still touching though.

after that met the rest at arcade at GV, then we went to eighteen chef to eat our lunch. finished lunch liao we went to bus interchange to take 812.
after reaching we went straight to pool from 3-6?? about there bah, after that went to the arcade at safra, they suggested playin CS. so we played but cl never play as he going off.
the rest of us played for one hour, but i play until super dizzy, weak sia, but due to not enough sleep the previous day or never drink enough water bah.

we went to N9 coffee shop, intending to eat chicken rice, but reached there no place and chicken rice store closed coz finished seeling all the chicken liao T.T.
bo bian we went to northpoint. walked and walked deciding on wat to eat, wanted to eat japanese foodcourt also no seat. then go sakae, also flooded, the went to BREEKS, too expensive. diao....

our last resort, go to Xing Wang Hong Kong cafe. result almost everyone ate the porrige(pardon for my spelling error).
while eating we saw Jimmy and talked to him for a while. finished eating, we went arcade again -.-

at there for about half an hour, apent about $5 i think.

then talk cock awhile, then we splited and went home.
yup that's about all.
no pics will be uploaded as there aere no pics taken, blame chin change, lol

ehh about today, i went to church, as we were singing to the LORD, i felt peace and love overflowing into me.
at that point in time, i felt so blessed and the LORD is so true.
how i wish i could experience that every single moment, lol.

anyway, that;s about all that i want to post.
bye.
if there is anything interesting i will post, till then.

and a super random thing:
TMR BASKETBALL TRAINING RESUME, YESSSS!!!!!

cya peeps

2009-11-02T19:25:00.004+08:00

nice today took my A level mother tongue paper.
did i did weel, u may ask.
my answer is i do not not, seriously.
for both paper, i wrote to the very last minute, which may be a good or bad thing.
i hope that it is good and that i will be able to secure at least an A grade for chinese, which i have not done so for the past one year, banking on this paper to my first and last paper to get an A grade.

tmr will be the start of another school month, first period already maths, die!!!
then last lesson is pw where i will be skin alive by iffah and the rest, shucks.

what to do, is my voice and tone really that weird???
ever since i came home until now other than eating, i have been sitting infront of the com, none stop.
did not even read up on any single thing of any subject.

have to buck up from tmr onwards, no more slacking!!!
or else i will be disappointing alot of people including myself.

keeping my fingers crossed that tmr will be a good day.

alright, ending here
nights people, but im not sleeping yet haha.
take care and God bless!!!

2009-10-31T13:45:00.003+08:00

here with a post!
just ended bb an hour ago,
was quite fun today but towards the end everyone is playing a fool making super angry.

having my mother tongue A level examination tmr, which is on monday, next friday will be my op presentation.
how will i fare, i really wonder.

there are alot of choices to make in life, and i hope i have make the two decisions wisely today.

and hotmail is having problem with me now. haizzz

although there is major exam next week but im still not revising hard.
have been slacking for the whole of this year now, super scared of my results.

it has been very long since i last been like this,
really need to buck up if not i will be destinated for failure in jc.

studies will resume next week and will last for one whole month, dun noe if i can tahan anot.
really hope that i will be able to put in my best effort in everything that i do from now onwards.

that's all for now i think.
bye

2009-10-25T22:00:00.002+08:00

juz found out that my blog is having its 3rd aniversary.
looking back i did even realise that this blog have been around for so many years.
quite shock after counting it.
although i dun really remember the exact date, and i think i have exceeded the 100 post without knowing and im lazy to count.

intensive lesson starting tmr, whole week having about 3 hours for pw and chinese.
it is good in a way and bad in another.

but on thing for sure i flunk my maths test once again and this time is due to careless mistake that cost me abot 7 marks.

no one to blame, im juz to slack.

right im signing off, even though there are alot to type, but i just dun feel like doing it now. thx for being here.

stay tune for more new updates, although it tends to be a few weeks.

take care peeps.......
bye

2009-10-17T13:33:00.001+08:00

sianz just when exam has just ended, i feel sick now.

looking forward for this break since last week but now having headache, feeling feverish and having a sore throat.
how to enjoy? haiz

super tired now.
need some rest, may post at night, stay tuned

bye

2009-10-06T20:39:00.002+08:00

have not been blogging for the past month at all.

was too lazy to update and there is nth to update anyway.

anyway life have been getting better for me i think.
being happier nowadays and starting to talk to others once again.

but the gap is still there though.
still closer to sec sch friends but for the this and next month will be quite busy so will not be able to catch up with them often.
hope that the distance will not go further, coz they are the only people who i feel comfortable with although at times feel being left out.

promo's is coming in 7 days time and yet i have not even revised any single thing. many people may say that im lazy or whatever, but i juz cant find the motivation to study.
i giving the result and my studies to GOD, and in the way i also need to do what GOD wanted me to do. he will bless me with the result for sure, but i also need to respond to the calling that he have given me. but up till now i have not been fulfuilling it. felt really lousy really need to step up my effort in doing what i need to do.

also i need to at least do a bit of revision, although i about 60% will be promoted but i do not want to gamble on it.
but no matter how it turns out, im sure it is what GOD has intended for me, so i juz need to walk through this whole journey.
last sunday went for church service, pastor said something that tugs me, "GOD have put u in this certain place to do something, therfore do not complain or try to escape,or even hate for being at that place at all"
this caused me to reflect on how i resented the fact that i am in this family in the past and lso being in YJC, but after all this i find that i grow to understand myself more. and i noe that i have something to do at the place i am currently at, it is only a short two years. if i dun do anything it is the same as not being there at all. therefore i have to step up my effort and try to excel and meet GOD's expectation for me, if not it is the same as if im not there at all.

a rather long reflection though.
hope u people will not get bored to sleep by my blog post.
in a rather bo chiam mode now, so my wording like rather boring.
bless u and me,

GOD reign in our lives.
take care

2009-09-11T14:39:00.000+08:00

had a blast yesterday.
went to wild wild wet with a few friends.
namely: zhihui, lewis, naresh, edmund, aaron(shocked?), soon kee, zi ling and me.
we played all the way from 12 plus to about 7pm.
all of us totally shagged after the event.
and i only can managed a 4 hour sleep that night due to my godmother and godfather are leaving singapore today.
and in order to sent them off, i woke up at 4, yeah last night i stayed at their house.
after that went back to their hse with my second godsister and slep from ten to twelve.
when i woke up i tot the clock spolit, coz i slept very long.

now still quite shagged.
this whole week of holiday i coming to an end and yet i have done much studies yet.
i just wasting my time.
im very afraid of not promoting to j2 but yet i dun feel like studying.

something is missing from my life, i know it.
and yet i dun how to solve it and i totally lost.
this maybe the problem that is causing me to lose myself nowadays.
that's all for now
bye

2009-08-29T16:30:00.000+08:00

hi people
i have created a live journel,
http://ga-ahyao.livejournal.com/

may not be using blogger anymore, but will continue to post until i reach a 100 post.
weird right blog open so long haven reach 100.
i failed haiz

lol
that's all.
have a nice day

2009-08-19T22:06:00.000+08:00

hi people, since like blogger have some problem with me or is it with everyone?

the posting page is soooooo weird.
i cant see alot of things, cant even change the front of my words. haiz.

what is happening to my lappy, is it my anti virus problem or computer problem?? i dunnoe.

need help, should be sending it down on sat for an 'check up'.

talk about check up, i need a check up on my knee. today training, it hurt too much, but still managed to complete the whole training, but super shagged.

tmr still got maths test, and what am i doing, nothing, because i have finished revising, although it may not be enough, but hope can pass the stupid test.
if not confrimed reatin next year.

thats all. hope my lappy is fine and so is my knee.

2009-07-31T22:20:00.003+08:00

ahyoung hase-YO!!!

the end of the week again.
meaning it is slack time but not really though alot of work is needed to be submitted on monday, so i have to rush through all the work.

juz finished one already which is econs.
now left maths, chem and one more which i forgot.

have to chiong
thats all for now. bye peeps.

2009-07-28T21:28:00.000+08:00

i am seriously pissed with yjc, and the ug there.
the ndp parade peope, dun have high hopes on it, it will be screwed.
the people doing it arent getting it themselves.
i dun noe how we are supposed to trained under these circumstances.
i super angry.

ilost my cool at first over a very small matter and im angry at myself for that.
why did i flare up i dun noe, have to keep my temper in check if not everything will be screwed.

next have to get ym ankle back into conditiion so that i will be able to play sports once again.
im missing the feeling of soaring, not really flying into the air, but just pure running around and playing my hearts out.
i miss the secondary school pe and games that we all had.

i wan to run with all my might, play with all my strength. and not to give up.

on the other hand i need to buck up on my studies, my block test effectively i have failed three subjects. which is very bad.
i need to buck up and i know that but i dun have the determination to push through and to revise my work everything.
after started studying for less than an hour i will drift off.

teachers are praising me that i can do it, all of them have high expectations of me, this increases my load that i must not fail them and most importantly myself.
i must not retain next year or else im screwed.
my plan will all be hindered.

i need someone to keep me in check on me so that i will complete what i set out to complete for everyday.
i need determinations now, or else i cant move on.
i must focus!!!

i just too slacked.

and promotion exam is only 2 months away. i have to study everyday from now on.
*pulling up my socks at this very moment*
i need help too, but it seems so far away, the only help close enough is GOD.

thats all for today post i think.
ja-neh.
sayonara

2009-07-19T19:28:00.003+08:00

ahnyoung hase-Yo!!

hi people, here to blog again.
an update of myself,
I injured myself once again. pretty bad sprained ankle.
currently no able to walk properly. swell up until like pig trotters.

super pain when i try to walk.
hope that tmr i will be able to go to sch.
if not im gonna miss out on alot of lessons.
dun wanna to say about how i injured myself, was a pretty lame reason though.

ok nest issue, last thursday i got my maths test retest, which went pretty well though, i hope.
after the test, i felt quite bored( used to much pretty) so decided to go and watch harry potter and the half blood prince.

it was full house when i went, but because i was only watching by myself. i got the ticket.
i dun say the movie is really that good, i only give it 3.5/5.
it is ok, but not really good except a few parts though.

thats all for now.

2009-07-13T19:15:00.002+08:00

Ahnyoung haseyo!!!!
hi peeps,
not posting for quite sometime le.
actually past three days wanted to post, but once i finished using the com, i just dun how the mood to blog anything liao.

although have alot of things to post but forget all about what i wanted to post for the past three days.
things are getting worse i think.
not as in my mental state, which is still realtively stable, within the acceptable range i think.
but is other things, maybe it is just me making a wild guess, but i feel that i furhter and further away.

there seems to be a barrier between us now.
communication is breaking down, but it happens alot of times before, not something new to me, although i can still cope with it but it just saddening.
after all those that we went thru together, it seems that all of ur are not gel-ing. all of ur are breaking apart from me.

my world is indeed crumbling. i cant save it but only to accept it. coz there is nothing that i can do.

now i really need to focus on my studies, i need to set aside time everyday to revise and i must have the determination to complete my revision no matter how much i hate the subject. especially maths.
i cant afford to fail it anymore, and also GP, i seriously need tuition, but it feels like there is not enough time for me to go for tuition.

i need to find back my confidence, i am no longer confident of myself now. no matter what i do nowadays i just cant seem to believe in myself that what i did was the best.
or is it just that i did not put in my 100% effort in doing the work?
its frustratin seeing others who are seemingly weaker than me doing better than me. but yet i am not doing anything to change it.
i just let it be.

thats all for today.
stay tune for more updates peeps :)
sayonara minna.

2009-07-04T13:52:00.002+08:00

i was always the one who gave up easily. in everything.
i wanted to be with you but i gave up. although this is not the first time it happen.
i really regret my foolishness. never been albe to sustain.
even in studies now, i gave up.

i find myself more and more a stranger to myself, i dun even understand myself anymore.
where is my dream? where is my future? where is the guy who always talk loudly, talk about what he want to be, what he want to do in the future gone to. the one who always have high hope of himself??
i dun noe

i lost everything of myself last year.
i gave up everything last year, everything, my aspiration,my dream and my education.
and i couldnt pick myself up after that. i only sink deeper and deeper.
it is like a bottomless pit keep falling without an end.

what i am supposed to do, i really dun noe.

ok enough of all this.

im super shocked the manchester united actually signed michael owen!!!!
i never dream that ferguson would actually sign him.
i guess not only me, alot of people are shocked too.
the newspaper in overseas circulated it in the previous day in england that man u may sign owen.
then the next day the news came that he had signed a two year contract the next day.
super fast de lorh.
super shocked. read the news and couldnt believe myself.
lets hope that he will do well though.
i feel sorry for newscastle, being relegated and so many players walked out of them, as a fan i super angry at the owner for bring newcastle to shame. he should be sacked if it is possible.
just hope that the next owner who comes in will be able to steer the club into a top class club.

thats all for today i guess.
i think that i have spent about $20 in two weeks on arcade.
pretty lame huh?
just throwing money away.
how stupid can i get, i dunnoe.

ja neh minna.

2009-07-01T18:44:00.002+08:00

today post before i start revising.
although i reached home at about 2.
i slack all the way till now 6.45.
can u imagine a jc student wasting so much time doing nth.

ok larh not really doin nth, all i did was to watch jap drama.
its doing something, but something that is not important.
and wats more i was rewatching a drama that i finished watching, and i managed to complete it the second time today.
spend so many hours watching it.
although many will say im wasting my time, but i feel that i have learnt something once again.
it keeps reminding me of something.

this drama serves as a very good reminder to me, as to what i should do and giving me certain things to thing about myself.
maybe ur wont find it this way to you, but i really find it this way, im really happy that i did not stop halfway in watching this drama.
hon to ni yo ka ta

tmr is the last paper, and also the subject that im least confident in, and the least prepared too.
but i choose to let myself relax, maybe to alot of your this may seems to a stupid move to made.
but to me maybe it is better although there is a high chance of me failing the subject once again, but i still want to go ahead with it.
what is all the point in stuffing in everthing, yet u dun really remember them?
im not saying that we should not do revision, but we should also learn to relax ourselves.
getting too stressed up will inevidently affect out performance during examination.

i know ur may find me too relax but i feel that this is good for me, maybe it doesnt work for alot of people. but for now i think i will still continue, even though it may cost me my promotion to j2 next year.

today i seems to be better, not feeling so moody but i feel like i have done something wrong to, buti guess i have a way to say sorry and to not do it again.
im letting my emotion run wild again.
i must really learn to restraint myself.
although things are not going well yet. but im sure the day will come soon.

although i dun noe when that is.
there are just too many things to do for now.
after tmr test there will be a three days rest.
and afer that it is school once again.scheldue will be very hectic once again.
dun really like this type of life, really.
but this is the only road left for me. i have lost all other options. the one that i want the most now is entirely not possible.
it is totally out of my reach no matter how hard i try to reach it.

i guess only 1/100 of what fell out of place have been put back into place, there are still alot of things for me do before everything is put back to the place its supposed to be.
and time is the most important factor for me now.
if time is not on my side i dun think i will be able to do it.
two years is all i need, that is what everybody is telling me.
but nobody really understand me.

not even friends who have been with me for 6 years. if they dun even noe me, how do i expect people who i have just me to understand me.
not even my family and my god parents and sisters understand what i really want.
everybody just put their hope in me thinking that i will be able to do it.
but they never really think about what i really want.
is what i really want so hard to achieve.
why does everybody want to reach for the best thing in the world, wanting to be on the top of the world, even if it is not possible, they still want to go there.

maybe my thinking is really different from alot of people.
i guess im still the odd one out of all this.
but saying all these, maybe i dun really understand all my friends either, i maybe like them, thinking that i know them very well. know each other for so long liao, dun noe them what kind of joke is that.
im sure many of us think like that.

but who actually understand one another, even if two people get married, they may still dun understand each other, causing each other to hurt each other, and ending in divorce.
there are alot of things i want to do, but what i doing now is hindering me from reaching for what i want.
this world is realistic, or too realistic, everything is all about money, once you have money everything u want will come your way. except relationship, which have to be built over time.

there are just too many things for us to comprehend.
ma yi na
lets just continue to move on and see where it will lead us :)

2009-06-30T20:46:00.002+08:00

watashi hon-to-no baka ja nai wa yo.
feeling so much in me but juz cant say it out.
those who think that there is still tmr for it to be done, are idiots,
those who feel it but dun say it out are also idiots.

i really agree with this two statement but i am juz doing it. therefore i am an idiot.
tmr there is exam, in fact for the whole week there is the block test going on, but i juz dun feel anything for it.
it is not like last time which was when i was very confident in the subject or what, in fact it is the direct opposite, i feel that the subjet know me, yet i dun noe the subject, but i juz cant seems to get my mind into studying.

for the past two days, for both exam i didnt even studied the day before to refreshed my memory, thinking that tmr morning i will still be able to revise something.
there is something bugging me, but i didnt do anything to solve it, leaving myself in the state that im in now.

i dun noe how i will do for this year, and there is a very high chance of me retaining in jc. although i hate it but it is a fact, and it will come true unless i start bucking up and do something about it.
but the more i feel like studying, the more i hate studying.
i know that i have to study and people around me are putting high hopes in me that i will go into university.
i want to do it too, but what they expect of me is far from what i can do.

im suffocated.
i running away time and time again. i put up my brave front in front of them, so that they will not worry about me.
but the more i do it the more miserable i feel.
and all these happen because i made a wrong decision, and i cant change it, or should i say i dun wan to change it.

i took away what was within my grasp. making it further and further away.
i only have myself to blame.
watashi hon to ni na ni mo no nai.

i really scared of the future now. i have never been so scared of it before.
all i thought was thinking about how other feels up till now, but have i really knew what i really wanted, did i really have the guts to do what i want.
i dun noe the answer myself.

im wasting my life away, and i know that.
and now even my body is giving way.
i dun noe why but it is on the verge of breaking down i guess.

i tot i had the answer for all these things.
but it turn out that i never really understood any of these things, and just let it passes me like the wind.
and it is hurting me now.

im not the same person i was two years ago.
i felt like i have lost everything, even though things still proceeds as the past, but i just feel like i have lost something really important, but i dun noe what it is.

im really weak, id un even know how to face the next day the the future that is coming.
im lost, lost in my world of tots.

2009-06-25T17:34:00.003+08:00

after so long i tot that i have let it go.
but after such long time of being so sad i finally found out that i still cant let go.

im weak therefore i need help, but where can i find help??
im really lost, i need to do something about it, i know what i need to do in order to get myself up on my feet but i couldnt bring myself to do it. im scared that it will cause something terrible that i dun want to see it happen.

keeping it so long in my heart is suffocating me. its also affecting my daily performance, i trying very hard to escape this reality, but this is not the right way to do it.
i know it, but i still do it cause this is the best for everyone.
i know that i should care more about myself but that is me, i dun want to cause hurt to anyone else.
it is better for me to bear all this hurt.

one person hurted is better than alot people getting hurt.
ya u can say im a baka or watever but i just can bear to see others hurt, therefore hurting myself.

im really stupid-heh
i really wish i could do what was needed but i know i dun want to even though my heart wants me to do so, i controlled my mind by telling myself not to do it.
its really stupid, finding out the problem but not solving it. there is no one stupider than me.

i need to find another way to solve this problem, but i guess there is no other way as this is a heart problem.
so therefore i am forsaking myself for the better of others.

im just guessing that my brother is also going thru this, as he in the same state as me. so i guess we brothers are in the same boat, but we quarrel just to cover our weak nature.
just like how i also try to make myself strong when with others. but im actually really weak.
and because i still could not let go, my shell is breaking apart showing the weak nature of me.
i trying to put the shell back but it is already broken to million pieces which i could not put it back.
im really scared of this reality. and loneliness
but i just cant find someone else to share, and to confine in.
im losing myself and everybody.
being all by myself is really scarely
im just using the current technology to run away but no matter where i run to, the reality will be back in front of me when i woke up.

2009-06-08T22:56:00.003+08:00

was out on sat and sun.
coz meng ze came over from china.
Aaron, zhi hui, lewis and me went to meet him.

he did not change alot and when he came here on sat he even bought a canvas, those from new urban male de.
after that on sat night after shopping we went to sentosa, actually is because he is following a tour, but he sought permission and was able to travel with us.
and we had great fun at sentosa. there are several pictures taken.
once i got them i will upload them up.

on sun it was the departure date for him.
his flight was scheldue to take off at 4 plus, but his friends have all checked in, so he wanted to checked in too. but we delayed him as we want to pass him something and take pictures with him.
so he waited for us.

leis and i shared a present while aaron and zhi hui bought one each for him.
we also bought presents for other people and ask him to take it back and help us to pass to the rest

the days that i went to beijing were indeed well spent.
although i dun like tan keng joo but i still want to thank him for giving me the chance to go beijing with my friends and able to have such wonderful memories from there.

all i can say about the trip there is that it is fantastic. i simply love it.
although we cannot go back but im sure there will still be times where we will meet once again,
all that need is that we plan for it to happen.

lets hope that it will happen in the near future.

2009-06-04T18:27:00.002+08:00

sry for not posting for the few days.

was not using the com or should i day no time to use com.
not that im busy with work but busy with basketball, coz from mon to wed was basketball interhse, although rodney lost, what i was most upset was that my friend got injured again. his old injury acted up again.

juz pray that LORD will heal him soon.

today was another school day and tmr will be the last day but i still feel no joy in whateverso. why is this happening to me.

where is the me of the past who is able to look at things from a better perspective and do the right things. who is the me right now? i really dun noe.

after so long i still cant find my passion in living, i dun noe what i want to do.
why am i so indecisive???
this is not me as the past me is able to make decisions there and then but not now.

what is happening to me. i feel like giving up studies and everything.
but the realistic world will not allow me so.

and im still drifting into my fantasy world everynow and then, although i tried to stop myself.

only the lord can help me but im not turning to him though. i dunno why too.

but i want to escape forever but i cant.
studies is taking its toll on me and i juz failed another test.
i really dun understand why i chose yjc in the first place.
i regret my choice throughly, why did i have to succumb to my dad and the people around my pleads????

why cant i make me own decision there and then and save myself from all these sufferings???

i know im super emo but i have been like that for the past few months, i dunno why too, i dunno why im living in this world either.
and this stupid com is giving so many problems. now i cant even use any of the microsoft office tools. idiot.

really feel like giving up.

thats all for nw peeps.
bye

2009-05-30T23:00:00.002+08:00

juz finished watching jap drama-proposal daisakusen

this drama really rocks!!!!
of all the jap drama that i have watched up till now this the the best. sai-kuo-dai!!!

this drama is about romance about two childhood friends.
it is really meaning full and really good.
it is also the first drama that i watched that i have so many thoughs that went through my mind, and it is also the first which make me on the verge of crying.

even if i watch it again, i will still have the same feeling. it is really the best. i strongly reccomend it!!!

i will put songs on my blog soon as soon as i get the songs uploaded!

ja neh min-na

2009-05-24T21:14:00.002+08:00

i got scolded again for giving skimpy work for my gpp again.

arhhhhhh!!!! it is so stressful, i hate JC LIFE!!!!

when can i get out of this stupid cycle???? i wan to go poly even though i need three years to complete my studies, even though i have to forgo the friendship i made in basketball since i only made one friend.

there is alot of things needed to do but i really dun wish to do it coz im really not interested. but where can i go haiz.

i can only get away by going into my fantasy world which i dun want to.

argh!!!!!!! someone help me pls.

i hate myself i hate everything!!!!!

2009-05-19T20:27:00.002+08:00

haiz i failed my third test. the second test in the row which i failed.

didnt really expect it coz i really spent time studying it. and i got the lowest in class man. felt like dying man.

i study also fail, never study also fail. so should i study?

only playing basketball makes me feel alive but yet at this point of time, i cant play.

how am i gonna manage this two year in yj?
i seriously feel like transferring out to poly, i'm stress-out, in addtion to my already more than enough problems.

i juz feel like letting go of every single thing and just walk out, but that is impossible.

another 1 and a half year of suffering,
and the newest chem lecture i dun even understand a single bit of what the lecturer is talking about, it is like alien language.

after looking it thru myself i still dun get it, how am i gonna do well and get promoted this year?

my future look so dim to myself now, i dun where to move now, and how to move.
the environment i am in now also doesnt help at all, what should i do?????

2009-05-17T22:32:00.002+08:00

woots second post of the day

went out at about 12 noon to study, after that came home finish up my bio prac and use the com.

wnet back to gunz which was okok
and long time never play like rusty liao anyhow play cant control very well.

hmm but not intending to play often, occasionally

to serve as a distressing method, may or may not work.

but now im feeling better.

all i need now is a good night sleep and wake up tmr to go sch which i dread.

another boring week is unfolding.

nights readers

2009-05-17T10:13:00.002+08:00

changes my blogskin, it seems so long since i last changed it.

feel like im wastin time here when i have a biology test on tues and biology and other subjects homework which i have not completed.

i feel so useless in this world. everything i do seems wrong, i dont even know what i living for, i have completly lost hope in living now.
who can help me, i guess only GOD can.

facing quarrel and stuffs like that continously for the whole of my 16 years of life is stressful for me. nth seems to change these past few years. when will it change i dun noe. maybe it will never.

reality is so distressing to me.

after coming to jc i feel that there is nth left of me, i am no longer the person i am. i dun even understand myself anymore.

drifting further and further away. everything around me seems so fake even myself.

how good will it be if i am able to go overseas for a year to relax and to understand myself more. but i know that is impossible given my family financial.

i dun even see a goal to reach, how am i goin to move on in life i dun noe.

juz keep praying for me that all will go well and i will recover asap.

2009-05-11T22:08:00.002+08:00

should your congratulate me??
coz i post so soon in a week.

but it is juz because i was having a holiday today.

nothing much to do though, didnt even revise my work.
ok larh only a little which is obviously not enough

and there is a maths test on wed which i cannot afford to fail have to study like mad

another two more years of torture, can it passby faster???

ok goin to sleep now

nites to my readers
GOD bless you

2009-05-07T22:03:00.002+08:00

hi ppls here to post again.
i guess the font is big! but there is smth wrong so cannot change, but i guess it will not affect my posting

still not very used to jc life. ok larh not so serious now larh, it mostly because i dun wan to study coz too stressful but nth i can do dun wan to waste a year so have to chiong but always so slack.

so sianz arh!!!!
when will i be set free???

cant even enjoy basketball coz injured still need one month to recover.

why am i so suay?

faster holiday!!! i wan my break.

now at sch also nobody to talk to de sopuer emo sia, but guess that is the me for now.

no point changing myself coz i feel jc is not fun and i dun intend to change that although if lewis see this i will be scolded by him.lol

but now i still have a super long maths hw to do which i have to hand up early tmr. haizz

stupid brother took up my time dun let me update my grapical calculator so cannot do hw.

and i wan a laptop of my own and a wireless internet!!!
a flip phone and a holiday

but all of this have to wait.

will stop here
bye ppl
God Bless You

2009-04-21T15:33:00.002+08:00

did not go to sch today.

nt because i was sick but because i was injured during yesterday training.
injured my left wrist, it was a green fracture.
not very serious but got a mc from pe for 10 days.

all i need now is to rest and to rest in GOD presence.
im lost for now only GOD can help me find my meaning in life and u give my life to him. although i noe i had been skipping church but i will continue to pray that i will experience him more.

and reflecting on my past memories i felt im stupid as to let go of so many chances and regreting now which is of no use but i happy as if it happen, it might not be the same as now.

so i think that all this have to do with god so i praise him for wat happened also brought me some happiness.

no matter what i will always believed in god and rely on his strength not my own.

pray that my injury will heal soon.

that my studies will improve.

GOD bless.
thx for whoever reading
bye

2009-04-16T22:29:00.002+08:00

can i say that jc life is getting more and more stressful as the days go by

i dun noe for anyone but it is really stressful for me, i dun feel like studying.

since last year i already knew that i do not like to study generalised subject but because of not wanting to disappoint my dad and those around me. i took up the challenge and went to jc.

i noe your maybe saying i am stupid or wat coz who study for parents, but the other reason is that there is not course in poly that i like, the course that i like required and GCE A level cert which i do not have. so having no choice, i decided to test out jc.

but after these two months in jc, i feel that i find no joy in studying anymore, work are piling up. the only think that i enjoy goin to school is going for cca training. other than that i do not look forward in going to school.

and after hearing one of my friend applying to transfer to poly recently, it came to my mind that maybe its time i make up my mind what i want to do.

but physiotherapy still require an A level cert so what can i do?
so i taking a bet of going to call up nyp tmr to ask them about it and see where i can go after that.
worse come to worse i will remain at jc but it will be a rather stressful life for me and i dun think during this two year at jc i will be happy except during basketball training.

so pray for me that i will be able to go in to the course,
thx for hearing what i kept in my heart

GOD bless!~

2009-03-20T10:15:00.002+08:00

hmm, have been MIA-ing for a very long time leh.
coz i juz cant seems to find the time to blog.

my homework have been a heavy workload for me although i still manage to clear them but it seriously took up alot of my time.
and i still have basketball training on every mon,wed and fri.

my scheldue is simply hectic and not forgetting i have to go back to css every sat for BB.but i cant complain about this coz i volunteer for it and i really wan to help GOD expand his kingdom in css.

but now i cant even help myself how am i supposed to help GOD, i really dun noe.

im simply helpless right now.everything doesnt seems they way it was at the starting of school.

it was like it changed over the night,im lost completely.

i dun noe wat i should do or who to trust.
they say do this but in the end they do that.

how i wish that the day that world ends comes quickly,i seriously dun find any reason to live on.
at least for now.

all i wanted was a simple life,which im sure many would want it.
i only want to do something i like and live my life.

is that really so difficult, why have the world progressed so fast, until the stage where i cant catch up.

everything is super distorted right now.
i cant really think straight, even simple qns i dun noe how to do and have to ask others to teach me.

im even losing control of myself.
i tend to flare up easily this days, even at the slightest mistake or error or imperfection i will get angry.

wat is happening to me????

school now doesnt seems fun to me anymore, i feel that studies is a burden.
and i drift away into my fantasy world very often nowadays.

am i getting depression i dun noe.

i really wished that now i can go overseas and throughly enjoy myself and dun care about money restraints. but i cant do that.

even after the three months of break after O level, and only into two months of studying, i super drain out.

i cant find joy in anything that i do.
and everywhere i go i felt like im an invisible person,i dun seems to exist in other people world.people doesnt seems to take notice of me or what ever i did.
so wats the purpose of asking me for my suggestions when u are not goin to even consider it.

the stress of needing to perform is taking its toll on me.

all that i need now is a complete rest from this world.
only then i think i can come back into this world.
我现在所有的只是无奈和无助.

2009-03-02T21:49:00.002+08:00

here to post once again.

juz came back from my bintan adventure camp yesterday and went to school today

super sianz derh lorh.

lack of sleep somemore
plus a ton of homework to complete.

dun wish to say more about the bintan trip,
but one thing for sure i had leant something very important about myself

so that will be what i will be applying now in order to change myself

and because of that i have to scarifice alot of things

but that is no choice about that.

i am tired now, i need my rest from alll those things.

even though it had juz started but i felt like it had happened a long time ago.

i dont like this, so giving up is better than still holding on to it.

alright time to end
needed to start on my homework now

bye ppl
sayonara

2009-02-19T22:08:00.002+08:00

juz realise that i have not been posting for one week??

sry ppl coz i juz too busy with school things.

for this whole week i have been reaching home at about 9+ 10 like that.

so it have been very streneous for me. and after reaching home i still have to complete my homework.

and the amount of homework now is alot now.

and the journey is still very long. will i be able to take it.
i dun noe.

seriously im super duber tired for the week.

managed to recouver from my lack of sleep before the start of school now it is coming back.

hope that i can pass through this time smoothly,
GOD bless me so that i can go through this tough period of time.

off to complete my work now.
sayonara
GOD bless everyone
take care

2009-02-07T10:40:00.003+08:00

o-hai-yo minna

im here to post again,

the past week was having orientation at yjc, too sianz to post liao pai seh.

at the start the orientation was quite sianz but it got better but still not very fun??

and i fall sick on wed,
and so did not went to school on thur.

wen back on friday after they had their lunch

after the games we have the final celebration.

soon it is time for the BBQ but i could not eat the food coz my stomach will not be able to take it.

so i wen out to da bao food back and eat.

the school band played music for us then we jammed the night out.

the girls from css were so crazy and high even after we went out of school they were still singing songs.
crazy ppl.

but overall had fun.

but i kinda not like my form teacher coz he like wan everything to go his way,
then he like want everything the guys to do .kinda look down on the girls like that.

but this is juz the start, maybe he will turn out better than expected. so lets anticipate :)

hope that i will be able to achieve my dreams by goin into yjc.
am i casted out once again

k i will end here bye peeps
sayonara
GOD bless

2009-01-30T11:39:00.003+08:00

hai ppls

im posting again.

lets start with tuesday

after goin to my aunts hse to bai nian, went to my god mother hse to bai nian

and i forgot that it was my thrid god sister birthday,
so no present for her.
then wen to my godfather sis hse which is a bunglow.
then eat and gambled.
went back to my godfather hse and stayed overnight.
at night played majong until 2am plus then sleep,

next day wanted to wake up and go eat mac breakfast but when i woke up it is already 10plus so no more mac.

after that use com and slack.
about 5plus played majong again.

at night gambled with my god sis friends

lost $5 plus.

at night majong until 2am plus again.

so now to yesterday
treat my god parents to mac breakfast,

after that went to prayermeeting which is formed by clarice's church, it is for yjc bound students who are christians.

so that we can spread the word of god in yjc.
quite similar to wat i have been doin for the last year in canberra sec.

and i felt that this wast he calling from god to do it so i joined.

it was pretty fun

after that ate lunch with them and head off to dennis hse to gambled once again

starting i lose like nobody business.

owned dennis $6 then his friends $2 and his brother $2

after that luckily got back $2.

after that they changed to da lao er.

first hand lost $1.50

then by fourth round lost $12.50. wa sweat no money to pay back siao liao die man

the next round super heng man

three turns i worn

and each person owns me about $10

was like wa siok finally can return money liao.

after that went to eat.

fater eating played majong with his sis and bro and sis friend.
super funny sia the sister's friend.
laughed throughout the whole game.

went back to gambled with dennis they all.
and i won, was like on a winning streak.
after that went home.

brought $17 and lost all then won back $33

damm siok total $50

more than enough for today's outing lol

k end here
GOD bless U!!!!
sayonara

2009-01-14T14:59:00.002+08:00

now is the time where i made one of the most important chice of my life

should i go to jc or poly

alot of ppl are telling me to go to jc

if go to jc i have a plan to move in my life

so it is ok if i go to jc

but i dun quite like the hectic life scheldue.

so now im in a dilmna

what should i do man

and there are not much poly courses which i like so its like both side is like shit for me,

can i not study.

the answer is yes and u will stuck as an odd job worker for the rest of ur life.

so the answer have to be no.

ya i noe there a ppl who have lousier results than me but i still not very happy with my own results.

it totally sux.

congratulations to those who have done well.

wat should i do???

feel like giving up everything, and heck care everything.

but i cant do that, there are too much resposibility on me

i cant juz walk out like that.

the burden is too heavy for me to carry now.

but wat can i do???

there is only me to carry it for now.

to pass it on i have to wait for at least 4 more years

by then i would be in uni

and still the burden will be on me.

it is seriously difficult to please every single body,
so ppl do things that u will be please not juz to please others but urself.

2009-01-03T15:39:00.002+08:00

yosh minna-san

here i am to post once again.

so once again im an active blogger for temporary lol.

anyway went back to bb for the first time in half a year as a primer.(pardon me if i spell wrongly)

so first thing the primers did was to give punishment,
sad right

hais, after we ssec 4 stepped down the standard like dropped the attendance is .....

after that is the dry run of the recruitment drive which will happen next friday,
on one of the day of all the polys in singapore open house

sad less one day to visit all the poly,but nvm

i also dun noe where to go

and work this few days have lesser ppl coming to eat

so is it a good thing or not i dun noe but quite slack nowadays

and everyday not enough sleep hais......

and heard from alot of ppl that O level results is coming out on 12 jan

i dun noe wat to say but i seriously dun wish to start school so early

why cant they shift back the timing for the knowing of results??

then we can have more time to slack and recharge our energy which have been depleted for the past 10 years of studying.

so now the delimma is where should i go, poly or jc?

if poly, which poly and wat course??

if jc, which jc???

anyone can give me any ideas?? lol

seriously none of the poly course attracts me and i dun like jc life and also coz study generalised subjects like science and maths

damm sianz.

lets hope that i will get my thinking straight by the next few days

hais need to report for work later on at 7 pm

tonight will return home late again

sadded!!!
lol

ja nah minna
thx for reading my post
sayonara
GOD bless you!!!!
take care,
siyao

signing off~~

2009-01-01T20:57:00.002+08:00

hi minna-san

this will be my first post in the new year

juz wanna wish eveyone a happy new year!!!!

take care

and juz wanna introduce an anime to whoever who visit this blog

although not many

the anime is code geass

it is very nice, quite similar to gundam only because only the use machines to fight but it is alot better that gundam.

so whoever who likes gundam i'm sure u will like this show too.

hope ur will enjoy the anime.

take care
sayonara minna-san
GOD bless u all and me

2008-12-31T23:31:00.002+08:00

this will be my final and the last post for the year 2008

upon reflection on this year about everything,
this is worst year in my life,
if not one of the worst i have been through

sad things that happened have far exceeded happy things that happened

there are too much sad things that have happened to be named

lets hope that as we enter 2009 all the things will be resolved

there are also too many regrets this year,but it have past so grieving over the lost chance is not something that i should do,

instead i should focus on things that i can change and help in.

lets hope that i can forget all the unhappy past and start afresh

but will i be able to do it?
i really dun noe

that are far too many regrets,hatred,anger and sadness in me to forget.

my heart always hurts when i think of those things.

and now i finally realised that im meant to be alone,

never meant for parties even though im invited to be there

so let me be alone, although i guess i will miss out all the fun things

but that is for the best i guess.

may 2009 be a blessed year for each and everyone of us

cheers!!!

2008-12-31T11:07:00.002+08:00

ok here i am to post again for the last time in 2008

for my christmas there are two celebration on by my church which is called myhope singapore then second is at my work place.

had fun and was tired as well

although wanted to post pictures but my com does not allow it so have to wait

this few days have been working and working like no life but overall everything is fine

today and tmr no work but dun feel like goin out though,
although got ppl jioing me out for countdown tonight,
still deciding as to whether should i go

nowadays everything seems so sianz to me,
nth appeals to me anymore even food and games,
and my health is deteoriating as the days go by

so may die soon, -.- being lame here

but seriously my health is at its worst now

anyway to help it?? i dun noe, dun even feel like seeing the doctor coz everything they do is only temporarily, so i am seeking for the lord to heal me as his healings are long term.

everyday lack of sleep it is really getting to me too, gets irritated easily except at my work place,
coz everyone there are nice

guess i will stop here go watch manga and anime liao

sayonara minna
take care

lets hope for a better 2009.

may post later on

2008-12-01T00:15:00.002+08:00

changed my blogsongs to christian songs

they will be smoothing

hope that ur will like it :)

went to church today.
im lucky i went today coz i was able to repent b4 the lord and to seek for forgiveness.

and i felt that he forgave me so from now on i have to stop sin-ing against him.

during church service my work place called. they wanted to ask me if im able to work today night,
coz not enough ppl but i in church somemore later go play bball

even if i say yes i cant make it coz not enough time

so told them not goin

after chruch service wen to meet seph they all for bball

after that went to da bao my dinner at 406 the coffeeshop

eat liao watched manu vs manc match on com

heng arh manu win but such a scrappy win.

then my manager called me to report for night shift tmr

so have to work tmr night.
may it not be so hectic like sat. work like siao. blur like siao also.
was lucky not to get scolded lol

k i will end here
gald u like it.but i was the one who gave up so i cant blame anyone but myself
ja nah minna-san
sayonara

2008-11-27T10:31:00.002+08:00

here i am to post about my sianz life again

went to work yest

was told that i was to work for 11.30-3.30
reached there to check scheldue
got a shock, coz need to work from 6-10 also

asked manager then he say ya u need to work full day today

then was like ok lorh

then during break from 3.30 to 6 was playing my psp then revised my notes so that at night take orders will not make mistake.

then lewis msg-ed me and he told me he working at night,
i was like wat???
coz the scheldue did not include his time then after that he came then check again his name there -.-

diao man

then actually to day no work de then they include me to work today

so have to report for work later on.

but the working experience there very fun coz everyone there very friendly and cheerful

they never fails to make me laugh man.

and the workers there are really multi-racial lorh.

got thailand,manila,malaysia and china nationality there working man

damm funny.

but everyone is helpful in helping me this newbie

thank you man!!!

signing off
needed bathe now, or else later late for work liao

ja nah minna-san
sayonara

2008-11-25T22:00:00.002+08:00

wen for work today

learned to set up and things, was fun but

is a VERY BIG BUT

very tiring coz have to memorise alot of things.
sianz man need to memorise

juz hope that tmr will be a easy day for me.
narash good luck on ur trip to america
see u in one year time.
bye

signing off
ja nah minna
sayonara

2008-11-23T22:07:00.002+08:00

ohaiyo minna

okay here i am to post again

lets start off with yesterday,

met hock at mrt with cl at 11.50. after that travelled down to yishun. and we were late by 5 mins i think.

after that waited for penny,yq and jol to reach

and we head to yishun foodcourt for lunch

after that went to yishun safra and found out that later on there is event so we went on as planned to go to marina square.

on the way to safra seph called me i was like yes he is coming.

so we waited for him at city hall mrt station.

walked to marina square and there were alot of ppl at the bowling alley
as there was a church cell grp organising a activity so they took up quite a few lanes liao so we have to wait.

so while we wait we went and play arcade. and i drop 50cents into the gearbox of the daytona.
i was like wtf

while we were at the arcade the girls went shopping as usual.
after a while they came and joined us.

went to the bowling alley again to see how many more ppl in front of us and decided to play pool for a while.

first match i was tyco like siao anyhow hit also will go in de, damm funny lorh

played for about 45 mins go lane for bowling liao,
so went for bowling

and i was nt bad got second overall, the first is the pair of jolene and charmaine

lost them by 3 pins nia wa lau

but the machine quite lousy lorh keep jammed de
then seph was cheated of one turn and because of that i think he got number 4 or 3 sad man

after that went to eat our steamboat.
walked one big round. wan to noe y?

the reason is i lead them de coz i abit forget so walked one big round lorh

pai seh man!!!

reached there settled down liao wait for kuan to come then he told seph he at starbucks so we tot he at the shaw tower de.

in the end he at bugis junction de so seph and me waited for him and then we started our dinner.

we sat there for about 2-3 hrs i think.

in the end only left me and seph keep eating.

first time i eat steamboat can eat so long, coz normally at my grandma hse during chinese new year i eat about half an hour jiu full liao.

now eat 2-3 hr sia. good improvement

and consider the fact that i was only 80+% full nia so nt bad

after that train-ed back to sembawang

and we saw syamimi with her bf.

reaching sembawang. jet me still dun wanna go home so we very good send penny home together with cl

see we very good right. lmao bhb

after that went to broadway to buy drinks then headed home.

this gathering is indeed a fun one as usual,
lets hope that soon there will be another one.lol
____________________________________________________________________

as for today,

went to church for the first time after about 2-3 months of backsliding.

at first was parents dun let then dun wanna go then got O levels

so in the end never go.

today service was not bad.

was able to repent before god after so long

and i got a call from tony roma that i was to start work next wed

i was quite happy coz i was waiting for a job for so long

coz at home also nth to do de
now got job not bad larh

then after that they called lewis to tell him his scheldue

he was supposed to work tues afternoon de
but he got something on so he was to work at night. so i was the one to cover his duties.

so im supposed to work on tuesday now too.

need to buy my black pants and shoes now
may GOD bless me in this job that everything will go smoothly,that my relationship with friends will go on strong

ok i will end here,off to slack though. not planning to sleep yet

ja nah minna
sayonara~!

GOD BLESS UR

2008-11-21T21:21:00.002+08:00

ho here i am to post again.

the first time consecutively posting for two straight days man

so is it gd i dun noe. lol

today went to bala hse

damm big sia and he have three dogs
got one damm noisey keep barking coz it doesnt like strangers
the other two damm friendly

keep jumping on me and naresh

i was like ok juz let it come lorh.

then played his xbox which was quite fun lol

kk i shall end here
nth to write liao

looking forward to tmr 2e2 gathering.
lets hope that it will be filled with fun,joy and laughter

joseph pls go tmr pls

lmao

ja nah minna
sayonara

2008-11-20T20:45:00.002+08:00

okay back from chalet which was about a day ago.lol

the first day reached there played with the doorbell. spam it with david lol
next when to borrow bicyclewhich was paid by ah tan first.
$18 for the whole night. quite ok larh

then after that had bbq
as ususal im the chef for bbq and i didint eat much
only a few satay. i guess that is all that i ate lol

was not hungary at all lmao

in the end left alot of food not eaten

then they refrost everything

when i knew it i was like wtf

coz cannot refrost de lorh food

then bo bian liao let them refrost then

that night hong na they all played majong like siao de lorh
damm noisey like loudspeaker like that lorh

and clarice felt that there was something in her room so in the end she and janice came to our room to sleep

then naresh and i wanted to sleep outside de but they too noisey so we moved back into the room. then we still cant sleep cause ppl keep coming in and goin out of the room.
so in the end it is still noisey and even with door close still can hear hong na de voice sia

wa piang eh

then when i was abt to get to sleep....
three more ppl open the door and talk so loudly that naresh and i didnt get to sleep anymore

in the en i ended with only half and hour of sleep sia

i was like wtf!
but ah tan more pro the only one to beat me by not sleeping at all.

then after that clarice also wake up then me her and naresh cycled to mac to have our breakfast at mac.

came back at about 8/9 plus we went swimming with david.

after that i wanted to go wild wild wet but in the end no one else wanted to go so in the end did not go liao.

ended up playing majong the whole day

and pang seh naresh coz i wanted him to go arcade with me de in the end he went home b4 that

really sry naresh.

then played majong the whole day

at night ate sakura
after that wen to play arcade

reached back bathe, then ah tan they all started bbq again

and after another few rounds of majong i wen to sleep

and that thing touched me four times

i was sleeping with my back facing the wall,
when i wa abt to sleep
it pushed my shoulder three times.

after that i face up and it pushed my head.

there was no one else in the room at that time sia

but i was indifferent and fell asleep lol

but i worked up after 3 hrs lol so sad

woke up and i forgot i did wat liao

after that helped hong na make milo for everybody but in the end added too much sugar

only me and hong na that gang find it ok the rest find it too sweet lol.

fater that checked out and left

reached home slept for two hrs woke up coz need to go grandma hse for dinner

after that slept at about 11 to today 8am after that went for job interview

then now slacking.

now looking for sat 2e2 gathering
lets hope that joseph will be goin
or else will be less fun coz his is always the joker of the group

without him is like lesser fun liao

pls go joseph!!! lol

kk i will end here

ja nah minna-san
sayonara

2008-11-13T09:27:00.001+08:00

shong bo

O level end liao huat arh!!!!!

meaning its PARTY TIME!!!!

bio paper was too easy man haizzz

no mood liao

ja nah minna
sayonara

2008-11-11T18:06:00.002+08:00

O Hai Yo MINNA-SAN!!
=.= being lame

not even know if the spelling is right
arh dun give a damm

anyway as ur can see i'm here to post

and sry to ppl for straining ur eyes by posting long post without commas

lazy to press

sumimase

anyway it is two more days to the end of O level although it seems to me that it is the end now lol

for the past one month nth but work for ppl

but as for me it seems that i'm taking my results for granted haiz

was not studying as hard as before,
so if result doesn't go the way i wanted i can only blame myself

had basketball juz now

it was hell lot of fun man!!

how i wish to continue playing but so sad have to leave early coz got cell grp later muz attend

it is about 5 more days to class chalet,so should i be happy?

lol i should.

after watching taiyou no uta, i have fallen for Amane Kaoru coz she is so CUTE!!!
lol

when she smiles is like OMG I CANT TAKE IT
she is juz cute

but too bad our age gap is so big lol

lets juz hopes that the last two paper will be easy.

that's all

cha na
minna-san

sayonara

2008-10-16T12:59:00.002+08:00

i'm confused and really tired now

i'm questioning myself do i really noe wat i'm doing and wat i wan in my life
i told my dad that i knew what i'm doing but now i dun noe why i'm questioning myself

and is it a good thing or bad thing for being not nervous or even scared for the O that is coming up???

i really have no idea

and for my revision,
i feel that i have finished revising all that i need to revise and watever i'm revising now is like studying the same thing that i have revised so it's like i had finished revising everything but in a sense i have not completely finished revising everything

i'm really confused

that are things for me to reivse but i feel that i have already finished revising it
so i ended in a dilemna

i also wonder why u keep restricting me from doin this and that when u did it urself
if it doesn't seems to u that u are forcing wat u failed from doing it urself onto me and wan me not to make the same mistake that u made
but to me it is!
and it is very stressful, coz it is like i'm living for u and not for myself
i'm not living the life i want

and all i wan is to live my life happily and without troubles but why even this small little request is so difficult to sccomplished???

is it really so hard for ur to accept it that i'm trying to live my life happily???

i really feel tired but the way i have been living all this years
i need a break from all this
how i wish i could get away but i can't

i wan to live the way i want not the way ur wan me to live. is it so hard for ur to accept it?

all i hope now is that things will change

and that i will do well for my O level and not disappoint anyone

2008-10-11T12:58:00.002+08:00

juz to let ur noe juz nowat yishun mrt
a chinese
male age aout 50+
committed sucide

wat a tragic way to try to end his life
but he is not dead yet rushed to hospital for treatment
lets hope that the LORD will watch over him and will not die

bye!

2008-10-10T21:20:00.004+08:00

hi ppl here to blog for me finally
lol

where should i start from

ok then i will start from tues then

on that day my godsis treated me dinner at carlton hotel. it is buffet style was extremely delicious , the price is also very nice lol haha

this is the place where i wen to eat

it is at city hall here

me eating oyster
never eat raw de b4
so sua ku lol

but i was quite nice

me eating fruits mixed with chocolate

there is a name for it but i forgot about it sry

but it is nice

me and my second godsis

the one who treated me to this meal

thx alot!!!

btw i juz remembered this is the first time i'm posting pictures on my blog
so should i be happy??

i dun noe the answer

then yesterday was my bdae
after tuition
i wen to eat country manna with my cell group
first time having celebrating my bdae like this quite special
and i thank god for my friends
and of course my brother, lewis poh

P.S he chased me all the way until my block juz to give me my bdae bash but too bad for him i got to my hse first so he cant do anything

lucky me lol

then now here i am blogging after my godmother and my god family celebrating my bdae and i'm staying overnight here

tmr will be another tiring day as i will have my tennis game again

hope that my muslce ache will heal by tmr

bye
god bless u

2008-09-26T14:28:00.002+08:00

hi ppl!~

juz here to write smth random which i have been thinking

wat is the use of maintaining a relationship,be it love, friendship or watever if u do not trust the other party

i see no point in carrying on, if u can't trust the other party
i'm not pointing anything juz have this feeling that trust is wat we need to have in other ppl
trust ur friends and ur gf/bf
that is wat we need to do

arh juz a random post lol
juz speaking my mind out

23 more days to O level and here i'm wasting time lol
need to work hard again!
gd luck ppl for ur O that is coming up

bye!~

2008-09-09T20:09:00.002+08:00

i put up the tag box again

but if u suckers are gonna spam again pls hide urself well coz if i noe who u are trust me i wun make ur life easy

and i have change my blogsongs again this time is a playlist

hope ur enjoy it :-)

time to go for my revision

as for my prelim's result: i'm still not happy with it and i'm not gonna post it up
so if u wan to noe come and ask me personally

juz felt that there is smth i should do but felt like i should not do it coz it feels like i'm a busybody
but oh well lets see wat will happen

bye!~
take care
GOD bless ur

oh ya have to do smth or else gonna kena scolding again lol

bye!~

minna gambateh for ur 'O' levels!!!!

2008-09-05T20:16:00.002+08:00

since ppl like to spam my tag box so much i have deleted it so if u wanna comtinue ur stupid act feel free to look me up i will be willing to bash u up for ur bullshit

u are juz a bloody ass-hole noob

u are a person who is ashame of ur name ur parents gave u

meaning u are ashame of ur parents

i feel damm sad for ur parents man

u are juz a bloodly noob ass-hole

fark off

2008-09-02T12:17:00.003+08:00

after dunnoe how many weeks of absent int he blog i'm here to blog

but not for long

changed my blogsong to yi ban by jerry Yan

it is the ending song for lan chiu huo

if anyone happens to have the full version send me thx

ending here

bye

and someone imposed me at one of my friend blog

and i only have one person in mind who will do that and that person is alywin pong so whether is it he or not i dun noe

so if it is not u tag at my blog if u happen to pass by

leaving my blog at 12.20pm

bye!~

2008-08-09T09:57:00.002+08:00

ppl pls forgive me if i behave abnormally next week coz i'm not in the best of mood i also dun noe what is the reason.

i'm also finding the answer for now

so juz let me emo and leave me alone if ur can thx alot!!

anyway yest was a fun day but when reach at night my mood sunddenly changed i dun noe y
maybe i'm juz too tired??

i think i will stop here no mood liao

hope that the lord will tell me what i should do
and that i will get off this mood

take care ppl
GOD bless

2008-08-03T09:21:00.002+08:00

hihi ppl~~~

here to post again because i have nth to do haha

yest went for mock test. it was quite okay?? few qns dun noe how to do hope to to well though

but i never study haha

a throughly lazy pig nowadays man

even lewis is much more hardworking than i am now man
have to buck up and pull up my socks man or else there goes my dream and my life

so how should i start to study ?? i have absoblutely no idea. let me share with ur once i found it out :-)

anyway after mock test wen to check out bb they are having promotion parade

it was a fun ocassion but their drills throughly sux man

it was patheic i'm sry for critizing ur but it is the fact

anyway after that wen to eat kfc with cl they all, after that we all msg mr Ng twelve ppl to be exact happy birthday

imagine ur hp rang for twelve times continously

after that they decided to go david hse and so we went home first

after that called lewis ask him whether he wan go anot, he agreed so we meet up and went to his hse

we were supposed to study but in the end we end up playing
but luckily i finished one and a half piece of work. the most anyone there could have done??

after that was supposed to go grandma hse but in the end never go cause it was quite late le

called my mum and inform her that i will not be goin and left david hse to have dinner at cavana

after that we all wen home.

that's all

btw why is there so many ppl troubled by heart affairs??? i admit i was once but not now
juz follow ur heart ppl. but if the person is not meant for u juz give up or else u will be the one getting hurt not the other party.

this advice is not directed to anyone but to everyone

take care ppl
GOD bless ur!!

2008-07-26T15:38:00.002+08:00

it has been a few weeks since i last posted

so my life is juz as boring as ever been?

yesterday went out with a bunch of ppl

cl, th, janice, ah tan, alaudin, farhana, david, NCC, rayson we went to watch the movie Batman- the dark knight

i agree with Naresh it was damm nice couldn't get enough of it man

two face made an appearance when he show his other part of his face i heard alot of ppl say it was disgusting but to me i felt it was nth but if it was the old me i think i would have freak out

i did not because there was GOD in my heart

PRAISE the lord

anyway it was a good show highly recommended

so next week who free wan to watch movie?

i have four in mind,
which are Hancock, Red Cliff, the mummy and one which i forgot about haha

after that we went to arcade to play while waiting for jia li, ying shan and yess to come

after half an hour of wait they arrive so we wen and have our dinner at sakae sushi

david and chin chang did not go as they did not want to eat and david have cell frp at night so cannot attend but we still had a great time

there were two tables
girls one table and there are six of them while the boys sit at the other table and there are only four of us

we were competing and see who can eat the most number of plates of sushi

and so the 'battle' commence

and they won because they ate the sushi but not the rice meaning the eat only the meat

and they ate alot of side dishes therefore the guys lost

but we had a fun time overall

hope that there will be more of such outing but i guess all have to wait until after our O level

i think that should be all bah take care ppl
god bless
sayonara

i have given up don't waste anymore time, there is someone else waiting for u

2008-07-08T22:54:00.002+08:00

here to make a post as requested by MOMO!! lol
honour to see ur name here?? lmao

anyway saturday was a fun and enjoyable day for me and all those who wen eat coast, and the japanese food there was nice too bad the rest opted to eat mac which in the end they all couldn't finish their food haha

we went for cycling, bowling and also try out their arcade which was lousy
cycling was fun, the picture with chee leong face cover with the green thing is done by me MUAHAHAHA *evil grin*

my masterpiece lol

sunday bluff my parents and wen to church but in the end my mum found out as for dad i dun noe but he should have guessed as much

but i did not regret my decision bcoz sunday service was great and it was fun and i feel like i noe GOD more and more with each session of church service i go. muz make it a point to go at least once every two weeks or beeter every week.

how i miss my old phone K618i
wanna cry liao larh cannot repair ocz repair need $350 myself buy a new one but i hace so much feeling for the phone. how i miss the days i spent with it(i sounded like i'm missing the girl whom i juz broke up with LOL) but wat can i say
i'm an emotional person, don't like to let go of things i once had

today had physics consultation and once again i was KS by HENG HONG NA the auntie again. sad sia she always KS me de cannot ask mrs lee qns. and she is leaving soon liao leh can't spend quality time with her anymore LMAO

and the total amount of time i need to finish all the work is about 6 hrs plus. and here i'm still slacking haiz. juz can't concentrate at home. and i spent 3hrs on football in sch today more jia lak
hope i wun do badly for o level if my this habit will not change

GOD bless me man

take care peeps
i'm signing off~~

2008-06-10T20:37:00.005+08:00

yes~~~~
my blog is goin dead lol
even when online i also dun post lol damm lazy sia me but i seriously wan to control my usage of com nowadays after the plunged in my results i seriously have to buck up but it seems that i still can't control my urge for using the com and nowadays using the com usually last for about 4hrs

this may seems to be a lot less compare to ur but to me is alot as last time i can only use the com for 1 hr everyday and sometimes can't even use it but now is 4 hrs. wth man

seriously have to control my usage of the computer

back to studies haven been revising much lately or should i say once exam over i had not been studying?? have to start now or i'm gonna lack behind and won be achieving my targets then

after saying all these i wonder will it get to my head anot coz once i see the computer i have the strong urge to use it. sad man

I’m gonna give u up now, forget the times when I’m so crazy about u. nevertheless it was a wonderful journey. Now all I can is to wish u all the best for the future. Hope that u will achieve what u wan

2008-06-05T16:27:00.002+08:00

ok here i am to post finally lol
and to save myself time if u wan to noe wat happened at janice hse check her blog ppl
lol

okay there is nth much happening from sat to mon so nth to type but i have something to type for tues though

that day after coming back from school after lesson i was playing my psp to let time pass as we are goin to JOLENE's hse to celebrate her bdae although it is a day earlier coz she have to go for her goeg field trip on her bdae suay right but nvm we forward her bdae celebration

we were supposed to go to her hse at 1pm. then i msg tang and ask him and yanni to meet me at the busstop then we go down together. and yanni ask me to help her buy three packets of lays
and it cost her 11.40 expensive sia lol
after that only tang come and he was late for 15 mins -.- lol nvm
i ask him y yanni never come he said that she have to wait for the stupid josh koh who was suppose to meet her at 12 but at 12.45 he haven showed up wat the hell lorh
after that the two of us went down to meet up with chee leong and tham hin to buy kfc family feast and we bring it to jolene's hse. when we reached we all have to sign in unlike last time where only one person need to sign ma fan sia. after that went into her hse and we were the first to reach although we were late-.- lol
after that we used her com while waiting for the others to come
after everybody reached then they watched tv while chee tham tang and me stayed in her room while waiting for the busy girl yanni to arrived. then she msg me that she reached the busstop liao. then feng say dun go first i talk to her see if she noe how to come anot.
results: in the end she walked somewhere else then i still have to go fetch her. waste time sia
after that found her brought her to jol's hse and the party commence lol
we started eating and the ppl who eat most is tham me chee tang and yanni the rest we too busy watching the tv and the truth is they ate something b4 they came-.- no wonder they are not hungary so we ate like nobody's business lol
after that yanni, tang and feng have to go. but feng came back at 5.30 around there. then they continue watching tv while cl and me went to her room and slacked he used com the i play his psp. then they say the preparing water bomb for the game liao then we say orh but didn't help lol
after that i went to help and most of the water bag was tied by me
after that went out to the field beside her hse to play and the security guard say 'going to play water bomb?' we said yesand guess wat he said

he said ' can i join?' we were like come lorh if u can lol
then the game was mineswepper u should not wat is it so i shall not elaborate it futher. after that the person who was most dry was FRANCESCA and the two ppl who were the wettest were THAM HIN AND JOLENE. coz we bomb them alot.and they have to thank me for tying the bombs lol kidding

after that went back to her hse washed our legs and they girls went to have their bathe while boys just sat there and watched tv, play psp and used her com lol

after they bathed her aunt-maid cooked our dinner,which was maggie mee. after that we took out two cakes and celebrate. one is bought by all of us while the other was bought by her mum who tot we will not buy a cake so we were like diao two cake lol
after singing her 'happy birthday song' i suggested smashing her face on the cake but in the end we did not do it lol.
after that almost all of them went home left only me cl and th we wanted to play majong then jol went to bring them out while we helped to clean up good right us? LMAO
after that her mum came backb4 she came back
after she came back her mum ask us to bring a cake home we were like wth~
then we have no choice but to bring some cake with us lol
then we pursuaded jol to platy majong with us and i think she learned something although it is not good for us to play majong lol and the majong was brought by th
we played until 10.30 then faster go home liao coz my mum scolding liao and it was quite late le. and b4 we go the three packets of lays bought by yanni was not even touched lol

that is i have to shared

take care ppl
GOD bless

signing off~~

2008-05-31T17:10:00.002+08:00

yo i am here to post again, hehe

so lets talk about yesterday

morning wen to school for the stupid maths camp, times seems to past very slowly and after a torturous 4hrs we are finally allowed to go and it was shiok man

after that went home to change met up with cl they all had lunch at sp foodcourt

after that me,cl and edd wen to buy donut
1 dozen ok how to finish sia i wonder?? lol
after that head off to the busstop to take 962 to go to janice hse

saw hong na the auntie who said she will not be goin to janice hse walking to the further busstop to meet up with jiali yesmeen and jiali lol

then soon it started to rain actually it rain when we were waiting for the bus was very heavy then we ask janice to bring umbrella then funny thing is that she only bring one diao right lol

after that had a great day there

but i have to go now i will post a much detailed one tmr coz have to go out now

take care ppl

2008-05-29T17:54:00.002+08:00

asked by MRFENG to do this quiz but waited until now coz very lan duo lol
this are my answers

1) Do you wish to get married?
- of course. wish to have a family

2) What do you want the most now?
- peace and a happy life

3) What would you like to eat?
- sushi and ICE-CREAM

4) What is the thing you want if you have the power to create miracle?
- this world to disappear lol no larh. wish for peace

5) Do you think you have enough confidence?
- yes and i am always over confidence except when it come to love things

6) Are you satisfied with yourself?
- can i say no, coz very little ppl are satisfied with themselves

7) What are you afraid to lose now?
- my connection with GOD???

8) Do you believe in eternity love?
- not really but hope that there is

9) What do you do when you feel hurt?
- not sure liao lol

10) Who do you want to see right now?
- GOD

11) What is the best thing that ever happened in your life?
- not sure. either is nth or itoo many to remember

12) Why is it difficult to let go of someone you love?
- coz u wan to be with the person???

13) Will you be moody, sad or ring up your friend?
- rarely but yes

14) What do you regret most in your life?
- many things?

15) Do you treasure your family?
- yes?

16) Are you satisfied with your life now?
- can i be not satisfied??

17) If you could go back in time and change something, would you?
- maybe

18) Ever had a near death experience?
- i doubt so

19) Have you ever walked in the rain?
- yes

20) Have you ever loved someone so much, that you would want to give up everything just for him/her?
- ya but long time ago liao

2008-05-29T17:38:00.002+08:00

yosh ppl!

finally i blog for two straight days lol

anyway post edited coz my gay partner scared later something happen to me LMAO lol

anyway today had maths camp damm sianz

had to stare at the paper from 8- 4 cannot tahan sia

nth to post today also lol

anyway tmr ppl we will be meeting at the 962 busstop after seagate that one janice will be meeting us there

timing will be confirm tmr so spread the msg around thx

2008-05-28T15:58:00.002+08:00

yoyo

it is another three days since i last posted or was it four days ar who cares

so on monday we had the first of our major exam

O level chinese p1 and p2

hmm the qns i expected to come out for p1 did not came out though, but should be able to do well??

as for p2, this was the first time i do p2 until last minute lorh and everyone say quite easy. weird, was i too nervous or wat haiz dun care larh results come out liao jiu zhi dao :-)

anyway after that we tutors for the stupid maths camp got our hw sianz arh

four sets of thick worksheets. damm difficult sia
seems like my maths is deproving liao, coz other ppl all noe how to do but i dun noe haiz sianz arh

shouldn't be a maths tutor at all lol

then yesterday went to mac at 10 meet up with cl then go in first then momo come then david or is it david came first arh dun remember liao the rayson came

then i order the macgriddes not bad but after eating it was feeling very thristy the whole day and i ate two burgers, chee leong also lol

after that wen school had our physics lesson then we accompany the princess Clarice to buy her pratahotdog, i think

then we head off to david hse to play

then clarice, janice and david play audi while me ray edd and cl play psp. then after that jiang yuan pam and ah tan come then they play poker cards and they play straight for 2 hrs sia damm sianz lol

after that they say go eat dinner together then in the end left me clarice and janice eating cl was there to acoompany me only lol

we ate at canava and at that time i was still quite full sia from the morning mac meal wat the hell lorh lol

after eating we parted ways and wen home

today wen to sch for a maths, was suppose to go east coast with maine they all then i backed out coz i have tuition later then never go lorh.

so here i am posting lol

k i'm stopping here need to get ready for tuition

bye ppl

take care
GOD bless

2008-05-25T09:49:00.002+08:00

lol it is another three days since i last posted haha

anyway can't quite remember what happened on friday
but roughly, took back my report book during pc lesson was waiting anxiously and when i got back my report bk i was shocked!!! coz i was in the top ten and my percentage dropped by .3% compared to last year end of year result. my chem, Amaths,CH all dropped damm sianzz these three are very important subject to me. have to pull up my socks and work hard once MT O finished. can't afford to slack anymore have to be self-discipline liao cannot allow myself to slack everyday so ppl i wun be posting as much although i'm not posting alot now too lol.
after that had chinese intentsive programme and after that went home to take bike and wen to N2 at yishun with tham hin to buy fishes for our project. after that slack then wen home, nth to do anyway

then yesterday morning wen to see doc about my nose problem, spent quite alot on juz the doc and medi. anyway the great singapore sales is here again and since i was at orchard with my mum i decided to buy things.
i bought a polo tee from bossini, a short from S&K, bought a wallet which i like very much very cheap also hehe, also a pair of surfers paradise slippers and last but not least a new belt and my other belt will tend to spoild my dry fit tee shirt which it had already spolit two T.T sad sia lol

after that went to study awhile with lewis and miracle happened. the first time i study so hard with him coz everytime study with him i tend to talk alot and lose my focus lucky yesterday did not haha.
then he suggested we go play initial D4 so went with him after that parted way at the arcade, he wen home and i wen to my grandma hse for dinner.

after that wen home and while i was sms-ing i fell asleep couldn't believe sia then now wake up liao and blogging away thinking of goin church but both my parents at home can't go T.T

this is the second week i did not go liao haizzz

shall end her peeps take care
god bless u!!!

and b4 i forget GOD bless ur for ur MT O papers tmr ppl and good luck and to myself too
aiming for and A1!!1

chiong arh!!!!!

2008-05-22T19:22:00.003+08:00

yo ppl

neglected my blog for three straight days haha

anyway forgot wat i wanted to post actually haha

anyway life is as boring as usual

was sleeping in class for almost all the period as i was damm sleepy

shouldn't have gone to school, but if i never go i will be scolded for sure

as to why i did not go to school, it is simple
i woke up at 2 am to go to the 406 coffeeshop to watch the champion league final match, between manu and chelsea. And the winner is....... *drumroll*.........lol

man u!!!!!

everyone was screaming when john terry missed his kick from the spot as christano Ronald also missed so it was back to square one kick again

was quite an exciting match though

lucky never miss it but was very tired in school

after watching the match went home and bath got ready for school but was still early therefore faster finish my eng compo if not later siew kim scold so wrote the story within 20 mins i think.
let's see what she will say about my compo hehehe

anyway naresh watch soccer until cannot come school, slacker sia he

today had the morning run again!!!!
was damm frustrating de lorh
actually dun wan run de then the stupid dennis say me i du lan go chase him then end up runing and sprinting all the way felt like i ran faster thatn usual coz i was trying to catch up with dennis???

aynway when i reached the end point he had already ran to the girls track like so i lost track of him and i waited for the others to come back and soon we were in the class and i was dozing off liao
lucky no teacher scold me haha

then the sad news came at the last period,
haiz Mrs Lee is abadoning us liao. i'm frank, i cried coz she have really helped me alot in my physics and now she is leaving for TWO YEARS!!! cannot see her *sob sob*

then another news came,
Miss Karen Yap is also leaving was like wat the hell lorh, she leave then BB left with Mr Chew shiver at the though of that man. why they have to leave haiz.

then when we ask who our next physics teacher will be, Mrs Lee said Mr Dinesh
i was omg, i totally can't believe it lorh.

anyway enough of that goin to emo for these two days and then focus on my O chinese
have to do well in order not to let my father down. damm stress sia

hope i will do well and score an A1 no matter wat!!

chiong arh!!!!!!!

anyway maybe planning a farewell party for miss yap though like that time when mis chia left us that time.

haiz two teacher who have help me in my three and two years will be leaving the school earlier than me. not fair!!!!

next time wan to see them also difficult sia, haiz let's hope that we will meet up real soon i mean after our O levels when we leave the school.

anyway updated my psp

long time never update liao like shit sia then now got very good game damm happy haha

but need to complete my hw first, turning off the com real soon after watching bleach which is a feeler haha

take care ppl
god bless u and me and everyone in this world
bye

2008-05-18T17:34:00.002+08:00

here i am to post the second post of the day!!!

to compensate yesterday of non-posting!

today is the same

juz that i wen out in the afternoon with feng, cl, david, janice and rayson actually clarice should come de but she last minute back out.

bad sia u clarice

anyway we went to amk to watch movie!!

it was quite a long time since i watched movie???

we watched the forbidden kingdom first

was quite hilarious. i was laughing practically thoroughout the whole movie

was quite fun though haha

after that we went to the toliet then we discuss who wan to watch ironman.
cl, feng, rayson and me all agreed to watch except david and janice

janice actually wanted to watch de but have to had dinner with PARENT'S FRIEND lol
then she called her mum and asked if she can don't go as expected the answer is no

so so sad she could not watch

then after that we went to the arcade to play

and i was surprised that Initial D 4 price has dropped to $1 per play

so i decided to play and then i was very tensed coz all five of them were watching me play

and this is the first time when i play so many people watch me play so damm nervous lol

the after that walked around see cl play bb then david play aeroplane

then after that play another two round of Initial d then wen to see david play crazy taxi and he was such a PRO.

after a while he drew quite a number of spectators and alot of people were watching him play. he must have felt honoured haha

ya and while i was playing initial D momo left

and she was good enough not to say bye bye to me

after that cl, feng, rayson and me we went to KFC to da pao dinner to bring into the CINEMA

lol, it was quite funny man and i was damm afraid that the water inside my bag will flow out

after we went in we started eating and it was a nice meal.
first time eating KFC inside the cinema!!!!!!

starting of the show i needed to go to the washroom then run there.

very scary sia no ppl there de like haunted haha

then quickly run back.
missed one of the exciting part haizzzz

after the show we went home

cl and me walked together as our house is quite near to each other

chatted on the way home

and on the rain we saw one guy wearing a red coloured contact lens it was like he have sharingan sia

after that reached home played psp and then fell asleep

then this morning could not go to church

damm sianz coz have to go a temple with my dad or else he later angry

so bo bian went with him lorh

so now helping my brother do something and here i am blogging

will not plog tonight anymore

so ppl take care
and GOD bless ur

2008-05-18T17:08:00.002+08:00

this quiz is tham hin ask me do de so sianz de lorh haha

#1 If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?

- i will find out why she wan to betray me lorh, then i will emo for a few days that's all. this should be the normal answer ppl will give, coz i never have those type of experience b4, so can't say much

#2 How many kids do u think you will have?

- wan to have 3 but my wife have to agree to it first lorh

#3 What will your dream wedding be like?

- not very particular as long as my wife and i like it

#4 Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?

- not quite as i noe that the lord have plan my life out already

#5 What's your ideal lover like?

- someone who i love?? not very specific though

#6 Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?

- i dun noe, i think both is blessed bah

#7 How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?

- until the person is married?? or i feel there is really no chance liao then give up lorh

#8 If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?

- make sure the person she is with does not bully her lorh

#9 Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?

- alot of things especially family

#10 What do you want most in life?

- family to be happy and to be together and to be with the woman i love

#11 Is being tagged fun?

- i'm rarely tag by ppl so i dun care

#12 How do you see yourself in ten years time?

- ask GOD what he wan me to be in ten years time

#13 Who is currently the most important person to you?

- GOD

#14 What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?

- lamers coz they nth to do then come my blog tag. joking!!

#15 Would you rather be single&rich or married but poor?

- married but poor

#16 What's the first thing you do every morning?

- snooze my alarm and sleep again

#17 Would you give all in a relationship?

- yes

#18 If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?

- the person who also love me

#19 What type of friends do you like?

- people who like me as friends???

#20 If you played a prank on someone, & he/she fell for the trick, what would you do?

- up till now i dun think anyone fell for my trick, so i have no idea

so that should be all

as for who the next 8 ppl who should do this quiz i will not name as the ppl i wan to choose are already chosen so nobody so if u wan to do this quiz juz do lorh

take care peeps!!!

2008-05-15T22:40:00.002+08:00

hi!!

sry to those who are reading my blog as i did not post anything yesterday
coz i was juz too tired, reaching home after tuition have dinner and bathe and wait for hair dry etc and i fell asleep, so i did not blog.

anyway these few days i dun noe y, but i juz feel very tired.

i think i'm burning myself at two ends lol

overshot liao need to recharge haha.

anyway that was for yesterday

today ,
have the 2km run, but i did badly haha was not running at all was damn slack
giving myself all sorts of excuses to stop running haha
lazy pig sia me lol

after that normal lesson

but dun wan to talk about results liao it is juz too 'beautiful' haha

wil work very hard for prelims and O if not i will die at the hands of my parents lol

juz joking

then juz now wanted to go to yishun with lewis to buy his birthday present de but he got the stupid student investiture rehearsal then need to wait for him then until 6 plus haven finish i was damm sianz liao was playing psp to waste time.

after that give up liao go to yishun with my junior then bought his present

BUT!!!
before that i saw DENNIS and VANNESA(did i spell it correctly???) and i shouted dennis and vannesa juz stopped and stare at me, her expression was like 'wth' lol

then after that went to eat sakae sushi treated by Narash haha

total bill=more that $80

that show we can eat alot haha

then the stupid brandon call me eat second round of cha soba then i drink the hot green tea now stomach upset!!! idoit sia

but nvm i very good de, wun blame u(coz i also wan to eat)haha.

opps was i suppose to say that out??

anyway i juz reach home and here i am blogging away!! haha

people keep check on my blog coz i will be constantly updating
haha,

take care people

anyway juz to emphasis on wat tham hin say on his blog,
actually the paper was really easy although i did ot score well as my concept was down to the drained as i did not revise at all and i tot i noe everthing

anyway that is not the point.
when did ur see yi ling set paper almost all the qns like 1-2 marks de
rarely wat and there is only qns which 3 marks
and all these qns is very 'superficial' meaning it do not need you to think alot u only need to remember your concept that is all u need to do

so people juz take it that we did not revise thoroughly and put this behind us and let be friends and work hard for our prelims and 'O'

so take care
feel like i am repeating myself time and time again!!!

bye

2008-05-13T19:17:00.000+08:00

yoyo people

i have change my blogskin haha

finally i change it coz that time wanted to change it but cannot so sad sia

but never mind i changed it liao

haha

so back to topic

exam:

did quite badly as only i subject up till now met my expectation.
but i will not give up i will work hard in the prelims and make sure i make it into the top 5.

i muz study and study liao

chiong arh!!!!!

them hin when ur blog ready i wan to link u up faster give me the link!!!

lol

take care people

may the lord bless u :-)

2008-05-09T22:43:00.000+08:00

What Pang Siyao Means

You are influential and persuasive. You tend to have a lot of power over people.
Generally, you use your powers for good. You excel at solving other people's problems.
Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.
You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.
Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.
You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.
You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.
You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.
You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.
You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.
At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

What's" Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

lol this is wat my name means!!!

part of it is true though haha. felt bored so surf around and found this intrsting so i do it

take care ppl

monday is the last day for exam for all the sec 4 good luck ppl!!!!

god bless u all :-)

2008-03-09T14:34:00.000+08:00

Lets101 Quizzes - Fun Quiz

i'm juz here to blog haha

nth to do nowadays i dun even think that ppl will still come to my blog haha.

but who cares anyway

things are fine but there is a big pile of homeworks for me to do

shit man have to work hard liao

go!!!!!!!!!

wish to go back to the past

2007-07-15T09:50:00.000+08:00

really wish we could turn back time siao right
i also noe but if time really can turn back there are two time i wan to go back one is when i am p4 and the second one is that time at jol house where we have so much fun really wish we could go back to that time we have so much fun that time bu t now i dun think we can have dat happy time again. coz something happen from now on our usual gang will have a member short why does this have to happen i do not understand?????? i will treasure all those memories as it is veri nice i will never forget it and those other sweet memories i will also remember them i will not forget those sweet memories except those bad memories.lets talk about yesterday i have bb have to go to school then we have magic lesson!!!!! cool right aster that have devotion and in the morining have uniform check then almost everyone got mistake then have to do pumping lol. tha's all bahx dun wish to post liao

bye

reall y missing u can we go back to those happy moments we once have???? i really miss u i love u

2007-05-30T17:55:00.000+08:00

yo todae gt the time to post lol

errmmmmmm let's talk about wat happen yesterday bah

in the morning at 9.30 wen to school waited for long ge to come then we go find the lab assistant to open the physics lab for us as we need to do the project. we quickly do as we do nt wan mrs yue to see us as she will surely ask us to re do and we do nt have time as we agree to meet wif tham hin, jol, jet and ngoh to go jol hse to play one larh but when we reach there they told me and longge that ngoh will nt be coming as she have to to buy things as she is goin overseas tmr.hope she will have a good and enjoyable trip. after that meet already we go into her hse. at there wil played her com then after a while feng and i sianz liao coz nt to do wat then i and feng play yugioh cards wa lauuu tio thrased by him also nt surprising as he is better than me. after that play play then at 12 plus they wan to eat but duuno wat to order then in the end we eat cup noodles and u noe wat jol said she do nt know how to cook i and feng we like diao. coz it is the simplest thing to cook lorh. but never mind as her hse gt cup noodles so we that one lorh. eat liao jol say wan to watch movie then watch the show she's the man and it was quite funny lorh. then we play maple as tham hin dl it at jol hse as her com cannot play gunz. then i used her hse telephone as i need to call my bb boys to inform them about some things. then they hungry liao but actually we ordered the food at around 2 or two like this we ordered kfc and we eat while we watched the movie. after watchin the show we also finished eating. then decide to play tennis woooooo!!!! starting was quite fun larh then later no mood liao as all of us are tired then left me and chee leong playing and i win him yay lol. then we go up back to her hse. then i use her computer again and tham hin chee leong played her gameboy then jet play her psp and she see jet play lorh. i created a new account and play play then chee leong wan to play then i let him play lorh he created a new account wif kok seng ic lol coz his ic and his mother ic have been used so he ahve to use his father ic lorh. then he play play soon it was 8.40 ++ bah. we go to the chong pang hawker centre buy our dinner coz haven eat wat. then after we reach back we started eating. then her mother came back then we greeted her then after her mother go into the kitchen and come out her mother ask her u never buy dinner for auntie then she was like freaked out then said oh shit then her action was like she freaked out lorh. thens he keep saying sorry to her auntie then her auntie keep telling her nvm then her auntie cooked maggie mee to eat. then feng and i joke that her auntie dun wan to eat wat she cooked coz her mum joked that ask her to cook her auntie dinner quite funny lol. then after eating chee leong wen to play the maple then i there look here look there lorh. then jol wen to bathe jet nth to do as i and feng play a brain game. then later i play the com and feng play the psp then we say later we go hm then later later then when we are about to go hm it was already 11.30 bah then we took 965 then change to 962 and we are veri lucky lorh we manage to get on the last bus so tyco. then reached hm pitch dark coz my whole family sleep liao. that's all bah

and sorry arh jol i ask u faster go buy food sorry.

missing u y do u ignore me what have i done wrong??????

2007-05-18T23:54:00.000+08:00

hi my this dead blog may revive so keep a look out if whether i post anot but if i post will be a week a time or wat bah see i free anot

hmmm being ignored the feeling is veri the wat i'm sure that nt many ppl have been treated this way but i have and for 1 yr hate this feeling man

nw for exams yippeeee exams are OVER YAHHHHHHHH feeling shok. no need to study for a period of time

and for my results i have got two As nw but i'm sure that there will be at least 2 fail one

english sure one the other one not sure yet but hope onli gt one fail larh

and nw the yu gi oh card game suddenly revive again alot of ppl are playing nw i tot nobody will play it again then nw more and more ppl are playing wish to play wif other ppl but my deck is those lousy cheap stake one 100% confirm garuntee chop will lose ppl 1 if wan to play i may need to form another deck but i need MONEY three ppl owed me money seriously need them to pay me back. this month onli left $35 to spend nia haixxxx

where gt enough to spend wan to go out de confirm nt enough one lorh

that's all bah next time then

seriously missing u veri the much can u reply me haix. what did i do to deserve this???

2007-02-21T16:13:00.000+08:00

yosh everybody long time never post ler haha

first let me see wat i remembered after the last post date hmmmmmmm

ok let me start typing from here

from the last second sat of january then we have bb that day we were veri happy as this time we have recurited more than 10 boys to bb which is more than the amount of sec 3 boys
then we starting we were introduced to the 91st company then we have marching lewis and the csm of 91st company teach them about the drills and teach them how to polish their things.then after the marching we went up to the ava room to have our devotion and we have to answer qns then we were separated to two groups actually is separate to those sec 3 in front as we have a buddy system last yr as our squad is quite small. then all the sec 2 behind us then our captain separat the sec 1 boys behind us after that he tell us tha dennis is squad 1 leader then the shocking news came i was the squad two leader i was qite sad as i do not wan to be a leader then after that my sir told us about the aq which stands for adventure quest.i have join it last yr it was quite fun but this yr i dun feel like joining it i also dun noe why maybe bcoz i am not in the elite team. then when sir call my name to join the aq i keep ojecting then my mdm say dun interupe first let my sir finish first then i was like not happy lor after that can go home ler then my sir ask me wan to join i say anything lor. then wen to eat wif my junoir at verinice. after that from the next week monday onwards i everyday stay back after school to finish my work then by the time i finish i like about 5 plus. coz now sec 3 mah got alot of homework then this should be all for b4 last week i can remember.

next is last week start from monday my piano teacher tell me that my piano test is on 16 march at heartland mall which is at kovan which is veri far but wat can i do i cannot change the venue so bo bian. then tuesday do hw in school then went home do nothing wednesday do hw liao go for tuition it is the second time feng come for this tuition. then after that i n feng went to sunplaza to eat dinner at that time is about 9pm then we went to eat mosburger which was veri ex lor. but after eating quite full lar so not bad. then thursday morning do not have school as in the afternoon have cross country but actually we got have a day of school but our school did quite well for last yr o level so we got the first half of the day off.me long fran niang went to feng hse as we need to discuss about the bio project. then dicuss liao went to eat niang and fran need to go so left me long and feng we wen back to his hse then my mother call then talk then she ask feng to listen then after that we have to go to machritic then i was late as acutally i have to meet my bb teacher in charge at 2.30 but i wen late but lucky never get scolding then me feng long went up of the machritric to put our bags in the locker then wen down and i did not bring my phone as i was afraid it will get wet as it is drzziling already and soon it started to pour but we still continue luckily when it is the sec 3 turn to run it stop raining then me feng long we are the rear runners so we must be the last so bo bian when we r inside the forest we saw a long puddle of water we stop as we want to see the girls run and the water spalsh but in the end it did not happen so was like wat the hell why it did not happen. then jet seph and andrew they walk first as we have to wait for two lady who are walking veri slow then drink water cannot walk still must wash shoe wash hair then finally we reach the end point we were like relieved. then i have to meet up wif my bb teacher as we have to clear the rubbish there then it started to pur then feng call me to hury as fran father is coming to fetch her and we can take a ride but when i finish i wen up to find feng they told me that fran father have already drive off so bo bian lar hve to take bus home lor then wen to northpoint to eat then aftert hat went home. the next day during pe i have a bad backache then went to play basketball then injuried my thumb veri painful like cannot move then wen back to class for bio after that is recess after recess have to decorate the class i was doin my hw when yerterday those two "lady'' bring the friends come find me i was like wat the fuck at a time like this when i have juz injuried my thumb. bo bian go out see them then if my thumb neverinjuried my will have quarrelled wif them then if they wan to fight come lar but wif an injuired themb how do i fight so bo bian have to control my anger then say sorry in a bua shon way then wen back to do my work.thats all for now see if tmr is free anot then post bb

2007-01-05T20:00:00.000+08:00

about todae lol i lame of course is about todae
ok where to start hmmmm

ya todae went to school of corse as it is schooling day then when reach school went to class then talk and find feng and cl then chit chat then the rest sudddenly went down then i ask yq why go down they say go down for the national athem(dun noe how to spell) then went down mr wong praise us then after that we have our athem after that went back to class the first period is oyl them ms lee told us about the cut off point for jc is above 20 and ask us to work hard. next period is pe i was veri happy as this the first pe lesson this year but it turn out that i bcame veri bored and angry as the teacher prasie himself like he is a badminton national couch then he agrue wif nian tian about our school table tennis team then i got veri angry and bored lor frist time pe this yr like this sianz ar. then after that is biology then came in is the teacher who teach us malay last yr then i was like kinda shocked coz i tot is the science hod then she said theat the science hod will take over from may when she go on mc then she tell us wat to bring and wat she need. then after blah blah balh we went for recess during recess eat until halfway wen back tot the old table as starting the old table is used up by the sec ones then saw jia jun buying something then ask him to help me to buy two a4 exercise book. after recess have a maths mr ng teach the first chpt then give us hw then the next period is miss koh chemistry lesson she gave us note and she wanted to use her laptop but dun noe y cannot use the she teach from the note lor i find it quite intresting. then after that is en of the schooling time the wen to eat lunch then ichard call me to go to wds wif guang zhi and miss yap to collect the goody bags for tmr after we collect got extra then i and guang zhi separate it among us to coment ourself for scarificing our time lol

hmmm
i guess that's all

missing u badly

2007-01-04T19:52:00.000+08:00

yesterday was the rirst of school sec two to five to go to the hall and wait for the sec one then mdm laila ask us to seat according to our class we took quite a long time to settle down after we settle down we wait for the ec one's to come up to join us. then while we wait for them a sec two came late and mdm laila tot that the sec one's have come up as he is quite short then mdm laila ask us to clap we all laugh but we still clap lar later kanna scolding.after that those sec one's came up and we gave them clap too.but we atill laugh abit lar then introduce our form teacher and this yr we also have a new vp dun who is she. after the talk by rabbit we went back to class and listen to wat the teacher have to say lar then we choose our class commitee then we all sabo peeny then she bcome our chairmwomen then when choosing the ne wrap so swuy i kanna it so unlucky then we that day subject teachers tell us wat they need us to have and bring then the second day which is today also not much happened but got hw sia very sianz tmr then update i veri lan nowadays

missing u

2007-01-01T20:17:00.000+08:00

long time no post leh thinking that this blog most like 99.9%will die coz nobody come one i think i will also `die' wat so can write anything i wan

my home from holiday until now hav alot of things happened dun noe wat to do hope that this family will not fall apart if that happened i dun noe wat will happen to me this is quite a big pressure to me liao when school reopened in one day time there will be more stress for me to handle dun noe whether can i handle it or will i collapsed?????? now even her also ignored me dun noe wat happened to her veri worried about her wat can i do she does not reply all my sms es really hopping to noe wat happen to her and if anything happen to her i wil wack the person who hurt her. everynight thinking of u do u noe that???????????? dun noe when i can handle all this until one day i may juz explode if u are reading this when school reopen pls dun say out anything and dun ask me anything now about studies study biology until chapt 3 leh dun quite understnad some part chemistry study until chpt 1 physics have not study yet as i juz got the book not long agothen also got study one chpt of history lar thinking of who will be 3e1 form teacher next year hope that it will be a good and understanding teacher(if it exist)nothing to do internet got problem veri sianz ar then the stpid singnet broadband also limited our conetivity wan as to go sign up for the new broadband plan fuck them sia.

dun noe what will happen tmr hope it will be a happier day then todae

2006-12-15T15:12:00.000+08:00

yosh minna long time no post leh
first last wednesday is the first day of bb sgb we go to the hq and htey breif us o wat to do then we were appointed to the air base we wen t there by bus hired by the hq to there after we reached there we have to give them our bus card and hp those wif camera after that we went in for the start they ask us to sort the things to the correct place there were quite alot of plastic bags so we work fast then after we sort it we pack them into carton boxes the were alot of boxes also have to separate them into halal and non halal.later we went to sort clothes and other things wich are non edible also pack them into carton boxes.then we have lunch the food only have a piece of fish and some veg then a n uncle ask us wan t extra ingredients we said okay they he give us some dented canned food then we like wa so good sia come here got free canned food to eat at the hq warehouse also don have . after eating nth to do liao ma we play pesi cola hten the winner is ME haha.the uncle then ask us to clean up ht eplace as it is veri dirty.after cleaning up we ask uncle can play football as there is a ball the uncle say can but not too violent later things spolit then we pla until around 3 plus plus.the uncle ask us to make some big carton boxes which they opened up one then we make like about plus of them.while we are doing it the uncle call our hq to ask if we finished early do we still need to go back to the hq. they said noo need so after we make those boxeswe went home on the train they said go safara play pool so w went there to play pool i reached home at 11 plus father and mother veri angry then next day actually need to go for sgb but coz plan wif hoo kok and hong liao so i told my mdm that i cannot go then go wif them to escape if u wan to noe wat happen at escape go to feng's blog spot. then the third day also need to go to hq then i and another ppl all fro our caompany we be the security guard then the rest actually need to do things but they are allowed to rest so the whole day we did nothing there lor after that went to eat then went home that's all

missing u badly

2006-12-03T12:30:00.000+08:00

long time never post liao sianz dun noe wat to jiao wei leh

if i remember correctly is tuesday i went to css to work selling books there then i saw ah hoo and sow fun they have aeormodelling then i was carrying a pouch wif me i dun noe where to put so saw them ask them to put in their room then they say can so put lor their room change from the third floor to the radio active room liao ler they keep starting the engine ar veri the nosiey sia. starting go there nobody come and buy books so can listen to my songs then at about 10.45 ppl start to come and buy books liao sell until about 3 pm can go home liao as the book shop is closing
then wan to find sow fun as they have lock the room as they are flying the planes at the back of the school then took the keys from them take my pouch the return them back the keys then wen home lor. reach home bathe then use com after that wen to my grandma hse for dinner that's it lor

y do we have to be like this missing u badly

2006-11-27T11:48:00.000+08:00

wa lao yesterday juz came back from the camp juz to tell ur wat happen

first on friday which is the day b4 the camp i have to meet my sir at 7 pm at mac but i did not turn up as i did not wan to meet him coz that day i have to go alone to jwss by mtyself to bring two tents back the commitee all saw no time to go and help me so i hav to go alone lor

then wen i reach my godmother hse as my sis wanted to bring me out but bco0z of goin to jwss and wasted 1 and a half hour waiting there as the person wif the tents lock hkmself out of his van so hav to wait for a person to bring the spare key then the person bringing the spare key is so god damn stupid as he do not noe the way to jwss so hav to wait

then at night my sis goin out to eat wif her frenz as i am wif her she ask me and my 3rd sis to go and eat wif her lor wa lao then on the wayu my hp wen flat but it is a good thing as my sir will not call me hahaha

then wen to eat wa the place the queue there to buy the famous crab is so long and there crab is sooooooo delicious wa wish to go and eat one more time by the time i reach home is already 9 plus goin to 10 bathe watch tv a while then wen to sleep

saturday wen to school everybody arrived liao then most of the sirs are late have to wait for them lor veri sianz as all our programme will have to be push back

then on the bus need to give out the things to the group leaders the went goin to give out finish then i remember i forgot to buy the bamboo sticks i tot wat the fuck
then quickly call sir and ask him how then he say nth he can do those adventure one may have to fail if they fail ar i will be very gulity as it is bcoz of me they hav to fail haiz

then reach the moe camp site at ecp we do our rock climbing it was fun man but we were late lar
after everyone climb finish we change into shorts as we are wearing track pantsthen we ahv to walk about 10km to our campsite and it is a critere to walk 20 km to pass stage 2 after that we start to pitch our tents after pitching we ate our lunch which is outdoor cooking. when eating one of the sec 1 who hav juz join us was like wat lor eat also dun noe how to eat the mee keep dropping on the grass idoit sia then in this whole camp he make me and some of the seniors dislike him lor he like veri wat lor

after eating while clearing away the things it start to drrilze then hav to shift the tents to under at tree after that we go into the tent and hav the knots lesson at that time two boys go to the bicycle shop to ask to rent bijes the they came back and say that the shop will close at 8 we will have to return the bikes by 8
then we like wtf so early close then sir quickly teach us some first aid as the rain have stop then after that we run to borrow the bikes then on the way our sir saw another bike shop he go and ask the knew that we can rent overnight for only 10 dollars at the other shop we hav to rent the bikes at 2.50 cent hour and only 6 hour so we all wen to that shop our sir found and borrow the bikes the two also go and borrow the bikes.
after that we shift our thents to another place which is facing the sea then we wen to cycle cyle until a canal it is quite dark liao then my sir say something may happen so we all cycle back to our camp and eat our dinner b4 cycling to other place to complete our 30 km of cycling

after that we rest then we wen for our last 10 km of night walkwhen we reach our camp site after the night walk is about 1 plus in the morning when we all sleep is about 2 am liao damn sianz lor

next morning when i wake up is onli 6 am lor i think wtf i onli slpet for four hour then after that after everone wake up wen for wash up then eat breakfast after that have to fall in since three of them are late we all hav to do pumping sianz the rest do 10 the leaders do 20 while me who is the head have to do 25 wa lao do alot lor veri sianz then sir give us more time to eat and wash up our things then we will have our test and again we are late but then this time we did not do pumping as we are save by richard watch
then have test after test have devotion after that we went to return our bikes after that we have 45 mins to break the camp and pack our bags and it is a mircle as we are on time for the first time lolz

then we hav 15 mins to bathe and we will be goin to expo for the church then hav something to do wif the christmas our sir ask us to see if we are intrested anot but nost of us are not intrested then after that we went home

when i reach home my shoulders pain like wat sia barely can move then after that use com for around 1 hr then wen to sleep thats all bye
sayonara

missing u hope to see u soon

2006-11-24T08:32:00.000+08:00

na bei sia my sir richard is in cahrge of printing the first aid notes then he yesterday tell sir to print coz he do not have the paper.
then my sir come and scold me i ot what the fuck he is in charge of printing the papers now he do not hav the paper my fault izzit no right he also never tell me he do not hav the paper then my sir juz scold me fuck sia

then todae later at twelve have to go to jwss to collect wo tents actually is me and benny have to go then i ask richard can go he said cannot then i said nvm then later benny call and tell me that he cannot make it i say wat the fuck richard dun wan to go then u also dun wan to go wat is this man then now i hav to go alone later call clive and see if he can go anot lor sianz

ask them to do something ar like if this one cannot go that one cannot go liao find something to said he cannot go idoit lar all

hate being a leader now next time any project dun ask me to be a leader

signing off here

missing u

2006-11-23T09:17:00.000+08:00

hi everyone long time never post liao haha

first of all i muz say i miss u
can't see u veri wat so long liao haizzzz

the adventure camp i have been planing will be launching this sat
luckly i have completed everything i need to do wif my sir help heng man

when i come back then tell u about the camp

sianz lar todae cannot go to wild wild wet bcoz of my mum although she go to malaysia she ask her sister and my aunt to call and tell me not to go in my mind i tot what the fuck go wild wild wet also cannot. sianz lor when i ask her y i cannot go she tell me that later sat i will be veri tired tired nia who will not get tired sianz lar.then i wanted to go but later i go ar she scold me my father will be angry again haiz

y is god so unfair??????????????

todae no activity so sianz nth to so use com dunno can use until wat time sia later my bro come home say use so long still do not want to close sianz lar
this cannot that cannot.

monday i went to wss where my mum is working go and help the ppl there sell books

nice lor go there serve onli 7-8 customer can sleep liao hahahahaha
tmr dun noe need to work anot
that's all

2006-11-15T21:32:00.000+08:00

todae is a better day than other days coz todae got go out

first last night wo hao bu rong yi cai got my committe to go to the east coast park then b4 i sleep my mother rmind me that tmr got tuituion
then i suddenly though omg i quickly change the timing from 10 to 1 luckily they all can made it

todae after goin for the tuition wen home pack the bag then wen to eat lunch after lunch suddenly heavy rain sia then have to take bus to the mrt station iwas late for 5 minutes.so bo bian have to say sorry to them lor.

wen there lent bikes cycle around to look for the best camp site for our adventure camp then found it then cycle around lor nth to do wat

after returning the bikes wen to eat at mac then have to borrow money never bring enough haiz now total own people $13.60 have to save for 3 days the have more than this amount

haiz ma gi mee here i come

after eating go for bowling of coz the money is borrow one lar
after that wen home lor if not how to post lolz i'm lame

still need to write a proposal to my sir to let them noe about the progress about the adventure camp haizzz being a leader is so sianzzzzzzzzz

that's all